The Summer Set - Maybe Tonight

And then suddenly it hit me.
That moment when you realize you're not half empty.
That moment of all moments.
Like there is music in the night and we can dance the sun out of the sky.
These are the nights when everything feels possible.
Maybe one day we'll fall short of the stories we tell,
But tonight we are more than just words on a page.
We are here, we are different, and we are everlasting.
We are half moon kids.
We are legendary.

~

It’s almost midnight, feeling alright
Raise your glass when times are tough
We ain’t got much, but we still got us
We’re alive and that’s enough
There’s something in the air

So maybe tonight we’ll start all over
Like it’s the first day of our lives
Right here and now, no second chances
Maybe we’ll finally get it right
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight

Take this moment, ours to own it
All your friends right by your side
Maybe someday, we’ll be somebody
Maybe someday starts tonight
There’s something in the air

So maybe tonight we’ll start all over
Like it’s the first day of our lives
Right here and now, no second chances
Maybe we’ll finally get it right
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight

Na, na, na na na na
Na na na na, na na na
Na na
If you need somebody
Na na na na
Never let you go
Na na na na,
Everything’s alright
Na na na

So maybe tonight we’ll start all over
Like it’s the first day of our lives
Right here and now, no second chances
Maybe we’ll finally get it right
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight
Maybe tonight

It’s almost midnight, feeling alright
Raise your glass when times are tough

'Love the first paragraph :) Half moon kids!' S.Y.

The Summer Set - Lightning in a Bottle

Out in the wild
Party in nowhere land
We start a fire
Sparklers in every hand
No phones, let go
Cut all the strings tonight
Singin’ aloud right at the moon
We’re making out
Life’s never felt so good
Bring on the storm
We’re wilin’ out tonight
Then you lost your shoes as it started to rain
And your jeans soaked through
But you smiled anyway

Throw our hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
We’re catching lightning in a bottle
Don’t give a fuck about tomorrow
Yeah we’re dancing in the backseat
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow
Yeah we’re rolling with the thunder
Now take a breath we’re going under
We’re getting busy on the backstreets
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow

Back of the car
Blankets and me and you
We’re running on perfectly wasted youth
I’ll hold you close
We’ll call this home tonight
And the fake tattoo that you drew on my arm
Had an X and an O
Never change who you are

Throw our hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
We’re catching lightning in a bottle
Don’t give a fuck about tomorrow
Yeah we’re dancing in the backseat
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow
Yeah we’re rolling with the thunder
Now take a breath we’re going under
We’re getting busy on the backstreets
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow
Here in the afterglow

Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Throw our hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air

We’re catching lightning in a bottle
Don’t give a fuck about tomorrow
Yeah we’re dancing in the backseat
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow
Yeah we’re rolling with the thunder
Now take a breath we’re going under
We’re getting busy on the backstreets
We don’t need gravity here in the afterglow
Here in the afterglow
Here in the afterglow

Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Here in the afterglow
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Hearts in the air
Here in the afterglow

'Not bad :)' S.Y.

The Summer Set - Boomerang

If I was Jay-Z, you'd be my Beyonce
We could rock the nation like they do
And if I was Da Vinci, you'd be Mona Lisa
Paint a smile perfectly on you.
And if I was James Dean, you could be my Audrey
Breakfast at Tiffany's for two.
So throw me away
Cause if I were a boomerang
I'd turn around and come back to you.
Back back to you you, yeah yeah,
You you yeah yeah.

If you want to, we'll take the world by storm.
Show you places, you've never been before.
LA, New York, what are you waiting for?
Drop him, take me, cause I love you more.

If I was Jay-Z, you'd be my Beyonce
We could rock the nation like they do
And if I was Da Vinci, you'd be Mona Lisa
Paint a smile perfectly on you.
And if I was James Dean, you could be my Audrey
Breakfast at Tiffany's for two.
So throw me away
Cause if I were a boomerang
I'd turn around and come back to you.
Back back to you you, yeah yeah,
You you, yeah yeah.

Let's pop champagne, fake like we're billionaires.
Just you and me, ain't much but we don't care.
You look so good, I love when people stare.
You on my arm, tryin' to keep you there.

If I was Jay-Z, you'd be my Beyonce
We could rock the nation like they do
And if I was Da Vinci, you'd be Mona Lisa
Paint a smile perfectly on you.
And if I was James Dean, you could be my Audrey
Breakfast at Tiffany's for two.
So throw me away
Cause if I were a boomerang
I'd turn around and come back to you.
Back back to you you, yeah yeah,
You you, yeah yeah.
You you, yeah yeah.
You you, yeah yeah.

Doesn't matter what you do
I'll be there for you, I'll be there for you, yeah
Doesn't matter what you say, cause I'm here to stay.
What I'm tryin' to say, yeah
Doesn't matter what you do,
I'll be there for you, I'll be there for you, yeah
Doesn't matter what you say, cause I'm here to stay.
What I'm tryin' to say

If I was Jay-Z, you'd be my Beyonce
We could rock the nation like they do
And if I was Da Vinci, you'd be Mona Lisa
Paint a smile perfectly on you.
And if I was James Dean, you could be my Audrey
Breakfast at Tiffany's for two.
So throw me away
Cause if I were a boomerang
I'd turn around and come back to you.
Back back to you you, yeah yeah,
You you, yeah yeah.
You you, yeah yeah.

Throw me away
Cause if I were a boomerang
I'd turn around and come back to you.
Right back to you.

'Very addictive song from a new (from my perspective) band :P' S.Y.

Fucking logic

You bought a pair of crocs shoes for my brother but then he doesn't want to wear it. Then you forced me to wear it. Of fucking course it wasn't a fit - he wears a size 11 and I wear a size 8!!! See the fucking difference? And now you're blaming me for not wearing his fucking shoes and say I'm wasting your fucking money. WTH... what kind of logic is that? I didn't even get to wear my OWN fucking size 8 crocs shoes and I had to wear an over-sized pair of shoes for fucking weeks and I had, a few times, nearly tripped over my fucking feet. Who is to blame here, I fucking wonder? It's obvious isn't it? Then stop yelling at me for something that I had no part of causing and yet I had tried to help you with (seriously, I'm never going to help them 'Not waste' a pair of shoes ever).

Rascal Flatts - It's Not Just Me

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
That it's my face you've been seeing
In your dreams at night

Tell me that you wake up crying
And you're not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life, in your life baby

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the pouring rain
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing (crazy thing), I said

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

Hold me now and tell me that you do believe
In a soul, a soul mate
And tell me, and tell me, tell me

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

'This song is saying -- Please tell me that it's not just me... who is ready to commit. :P' S.Y.

Rascal Flatts - The Day Before You

I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
On the day before you
I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was all the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you

Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
If you're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

Was the last day that I ever needed alone
And I'm never going back
No I'm never going back

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
No I'm never going back
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

'The ultimate love song IMHO - the story of my life.... hehe :P' S.Y.

What I have realised... and a post grad's frustrations

Sometimes, being angry or upset or even hurt at something for too long is just downright damaging to yourself. Why stay in the dark zone when you can go to the light? Why torture yourself over something other people did?

I know I was rather emo and hurt over something my bf said but well, although it did changed me a little, I'm over it - *snap* just like that :) I'm not one for keeping grudges especially towards people who I love =)

but this is not exactly the reason I wrote this blog post coz that part I've realised it long ago and had used it as one of my life's principles :P

What I've realised recently is that the aura at my lab is rather bad these days - tension is running high. People kept getting upset, offended, arguing... I wonder... is it because people are cooped too much? Isolation is one of the characteristics of a research mode, postgrad student. I wonder who made it this way? Is it because the people who decided to do postgrad are people who are this way? Probably... hmm. I don't actually know what I'm typing here lol... I just type away. I don't even think hmm! :\

Now, to the main question, to continue or not to continue? I mean sure, I'm definitely going to stick it through for masters, but for PhD.. hmm is it necessary? Honestly speaking, I believe that I want to do PhD because the title is cool haha - I'm that crazy and well... vain in some sense :P

But now that I have different life's priorities, I should really reconsider... I suspect Dr Tang will try to drag my PhD (if I really go into this) until 5 years lo... by then I would be 28 with no proper and established career and no proper planning for the future and probably with some mental illness or trauma for being used for so long @.@ shit.... but if really 3 years only, then I can get a doctorate at 26! And my future path is clear :)

but if masters, what kind of job (that I like) can I get? hmm. 2 years for masters means that I will be out among the unemployed at 25 with only slightly higher (a few hundred ringgit) pay coz of that masters cert. Maybe I should really consider going to Singapore. hmm...

I want a better life for myself, my future family and my current family - and I believe a doctorate would help me achieve that. But if its deteriorating effect caused me to change into some evil, sadistic monster who will manipulate their future students in the same way I was, then I'd rather let this go. Yue Rong said not all lecturers are as manipulative as Dr Tang - I know he's a good supervisor, but his way of manipulating his students is something that I, not only dislike, but loath. I really cannot see eye to eye with people like this. He may say he saw potential in me and wanted me to do better so keep adding objectives once I've completed them fast enough - so I cannot graduate earlier... then FU, I'll be off earning some real money instead.

haiz, HL agrees with what he does but each person's are entitled to their opinion. And there I've said it. People like this are like dirt to me. :\ Why can't people just care for other people and get along? They just the selfish bastards that they always are... I mean, ya, sometimes I can be a selfish bastard as well, but you're an EDUCATOR - if you don't care for your student's studies, and besides the students themselves, then who will? Using students as free labour is just downright wrong - you may say you taught us stuff so you're entitled to use your students... well HELLO! reality check, who is the person earning RM 10 000 per month while the rest of us is toiling endlessly coz of your too-big ego. You are earning an income to TEACH your students, NOT to use your students. What do we get from all of this? A f-ing cert that's all. All we want is that f-ing cert and we'll be out of your hair. hmm.

Okay, I'm going to chill before I go to sleep. Tmr will be better - keep telling yourself that and you'll crawl through. and I WILL crawl through, even if I had to crawl using my teeth...