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Friday, March 15, 2013

Frustrations and Procrastinations

Frustrations and Procrastinations

When I'm feeling like I'm drowning,
Suffocating, am barely breathing
When water enters my lungs
Choking the life out of me
I feel stiffled, I need to escape!
Away from all these, away from here
But where else could I go?
And what else could I do?
Is there any way to get through this?
Is there a key to my cage?
A ladder out of my tunnel?
Desperation and depression,
Stop bothering me~!
Fatigue and temptations,
Please leave me alone~!
Let me get this done,
Let me finish my work!
You're not helping,
You're making this worse!

Time! Time! I need more time!
When daylight turns to night
As papers piled up higher than high
As I slumped across my table in despair
Sighing at my work
Looking for an escape
Finding an excuse
Getting away!

Reality sets in
The work never went away
Sighing again
I trudged to my desk
And the sound of typing and isolation
Faded into the background noise of life

By Aveyn Toh


'Am published in The UK Poetry Library!!! :D Go check it out @ http://goo.gl/N0qsi2 :)' S.Y.

Hurt

Am I just thinking too much?

But from what you've said last night - it really hurt me. Yes, I am naive, ignorant and stupid, that I admit - I didn't know what it takes to set up a f-king business, but the way you said that to me... it's like you're mocking me (that's how I felt that time and I was deeply hurt but I kept up a facade throughout the night) and it made me feel demeaning. I never thought I would ever hear these sort of words coming from you, out of all people. Did you know that few minutes of 'talk' you gave me felt to me as though they were hours? Long... and agonising hours? Why did you do that to me?

I've all but forgotten about it until you teased me today and it somehow triggered  my anger and I recalled that thing you said to me yesterday.

Yes, in this kind of situation, I get hurt easily. Did you noticed that I avoided having contact with you today? Since this morning that is....? You said, you talk like this to all your friends - yes, I know, I've seen and heard it but then, I wonder... am I just your friend?

And from yesterday, I've heard a lot - and I wonder why you let yourself be trapped in that kind of situation?

You know HL is going to ruin your supervisor's account and that it'll definitely affect you and your studies... badly and you're like 'yeah, let's ruin his account anyway' - you don't really care about staying here isit? Did you realised what you did? You're just ruining yourself! And there I was - worrying away for you and was about to confront HL and to ask him to think of his friend's (your) welfare, but you didn't care about your studies after all? And some friend he is if he asked you to join his lab only to pull you down together with someone that he had a grudge with. His revenge shouldn't be adversely affecting his friends... or perhaps he doesn't think of you as his friend?

Also, I was very concerned when I heard you said something about - 'if that something doesn't suit you, just leave and find another. It's not like the world has so few people only.' - oh ho, so you really think that way ya? When I'm no longer needed or loved, I will be discarded like some piece of trash? Is that really the way you think? But in this aspect I might have been thinking too much as he was not using these words in this context but I feel that your words do reflect who you are and, how and what you think.

I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I am really thinking too much. Maybe I'm just upset and hurt that last night went that way. Maybe I'm just super-tired due to lack of sleep. Maybe I'm just being silly. Maybe I just don't understand you. Maybe you might think that I'm a drama queen after all. But one thing is for sure, I really regretted my decision to stay at Bertam last night... I really do. There are things that I wish I did not hear... especially some of those words that came from your own mouth.

Monday, March 11, 2013

Google Chrome errors and how to fix them + tips to improve speed

Okay I'm compiling some common errors of google chrome and their fixes so I don't have to keep searching for them again lol. P/S: I'm using '----' to represent the arrow alright? Blogger kept changing my arrows into code lol.


1. Missing Plug-in error

All you need to go is go to chromes task manager ... (select the tool on the right hand side by URL bar) OR click SHIFT + ESC to bring it up

search for the "Plug-in: Shockwave Flash" and click END process

close out the task manager and refresh the URL/youtube/page link u were on and it should play fine.

(Source: http://www.google.com/support/forum/p/Chrome/thread?tid=495dc24ec9202e1c&hl=en)


2. Tabs closing when you're left clicking them

It's a mouse problem - your wheel button got stuck. You just need to click the wheel button once to inactivate it. This is because Chrome has this setting whereby it'll close any tab if you click it using the wheel button.

(Source: http://productforums.google.com/forum/#!topic/chrome/oes5LXN44x4)


Tips:

1. If your computer is running slower than usual after you've closed Chrome, it might mean that Chrome's background apps are still using up memory. Go to 'wrench' menu ---- settings ---- advanced settings (at the very bottom of the settings page) ---- scroll down to the very bottom, you should see a 'background apps' section ---- uncheck 'Continue running background apps when Google Chrome is closed'

(Source: http://productforums.google.com/forum/#!topic/chrome/cvIBudKEUkw)

---- ALSO, if you're wondering why chrome.exe appears so many times in Task manager even though you have only 1 tab open in Chrome --- when you load Chrome it also loads any plugins, extensions and apps from Google. So, for faster, non-laggy browsing, disable any additional apps (Google translator/ dictionary etc).

ALTERNATIVE METHOD: In order to close Google Chrome completely when background apps are running, select Exit from the Chrome menu (Quit on a Mac). OR, you can uninstall the apps.

(Source: http://support.google.com/chrome/bin/answer.py?hl=en&answer=1184722)


2. To check what background processes are running and taking up excessive computer memory

Go to 'wrench' menu ---- Tools ---- task manager

*** also, you can manually force close any apps/extensions/plug-ins from there


3. Google chrome's Incognito mode

If you want to browse without leaving any browser history behind, just press these keys (simultaneously) Ctrl+Shift+N. It'll open a new G Chrome window which is set at incognito mode. You'll never need to manually delete certain history entries that you (with a good reason I believe :P) don't want anyone who uses that computer to see. But ofc as mentioned on the first tab of the incognito mode G Chrome....
Going Incognito doesn't affect the behaviour of other people, servers or software. Be wary of:
Websites that collect or share information about you
Internet service providers or employers that track the pages you visit
Malicious software that tracks your keystrokes in exchange for free smilies
Surveillance by secret agents
People standing behind you (for example your boss :P)
So, those people who go to those 'shady' websites can rejoice... lol~ :P

Skyrim encountered bugs and how to fix them

These are the list of bugs that I've found (you might find way more or less bugs than me but well, if the help you need is not here, you have to go back to google and try to find it :P)

These are the solutions that I've used, but I may have also listed a/ a few other alternatives (try it at your own risk!). Also, if you use the console commands, then there is a risk of bugging up more quests in the future (though I have not personally encountered any yet --- edit: I've finally encountered one. It bugged up one of the NPCs and producing multiple copies of it and that you cannot talk to him... luckily that NPC is useless haha :P)


Bug 1: Talk to Esbern

He is supposed to open the door for you and the dialogue for him is not in the files or is corrupted. So I've fixed it by adding a some sort of a 'patch' myself. It worked fine and the dialogue came back (dialogue is not necessary to complete the quest though). 

Download site for bug fix and dialogue fix:http://www.filesonic.com/file/3510536384/sound.rarInstructions: Extract it and copy it to the Skyrim Data folder (C:/ --- Program files *(x86) --- The Elder Scrolls V Skyrim --- Data). It should be INSIDE the data folder and OUTSIDE the other folders (Strings, Video, Interface)

* indicates depends on what version you're using


Alternative solutions: Try saving very near to the door and load (didn't work for me). OR try exiting the ratway warrens and reenter (didn't work for me).

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Bug 2: Becoming Thane of Riften

The quest tells you to visit your new house, Honeyside, before talking to the Jarl. IT IS FALSE. Just talk to the Jarl RIGHT AFTER you bought the house (DON'T BUY ANY DECORATIONS YET). But ofc, if you have already encountered the bug and don't have a saved game prior to that bug (like me), you'll have to use a console command to fix it.

Go to the Jarl and press '~'. Then type this: 'player.setstage FreeformRiftenThane 200' (follow the spacings). It should fix it (going to try this after I post this note up :P)


Edit: This didn't work for me either... gahhh lol.

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Bug 3: Convince Greta to go to the Temple of the Divines
Okay, this is a tough one. Quoting the solution:

"A solution for the PC version is to proceed to talk to Svari, then talk to the Greta. Mention going to temple, and after she asks you to retrieve the amulet, exit the conversation. Do not choose the "Actually I've got it here" option. Now in the console, type "setStage SolitudeFreeform03 20" (without the quotation marks), this will set the quest to the moment you are supposed to retrieve the amulet. Since you already have it, go into the console once more and type "setStage SolitudeFreeform03 30" which will set the moment you should have picked the amulet up. Return to Greta and give the amulet. It will complete the quest and will be removed from the log, though the Amulet still stays in your inventory and you won't get the reward she mentions."


Alt: Or you can just NOT loot the amulet off Roggvir's corpse the first time around. Or just type 'setstage SolitudeFreeform03 20' to move on to the next quest (I think) or to finish the entire quest line change the '20' to '40'.

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Bug 4: Barbas (the dog)


I told him to stay at a place (as he is messing up my sneak) and he's gone when I when back to get him. Try the daedra cave/ shrine, maybe he's there (ima try that). Try waiting a few hours as well if he's not.


NOTE: Barbac is invincible and is very useful against powerful enemies. Also, you can get another dog, if you don't like Barbas, called Vigilance - guide: http://gofygure.hubpages.com/hub/How-to-Find-or-Buy-a-Dog-in-Skyrim 

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Bug 5: Galduar's first door

No clue whatsoever on how to open the door (the three-circle combo type of door). I've got the first one figured out (it's the last combo of all the combos that I've tried >.>): it's (from top to center: bear -> dolphin -> snake). However, for the second door, the clues are useless but I got fed up and used 'tcl' lol.

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Not bugs:
When fighting Arcano, equip the Staff of Magnus and cast it (pressing the mouse button - which button depends on which hand you equip it on) at the eye of Magnus ONCE you enter the room (to trigger the dialogue) - you can stop casting after the dialogue starts, then when Arcano becomes attackable (health bar can be seen), start casting the staff at the eye until it closes (a bit also can already, sometimes). Once it closes, you are able to damage Arcano, or if not, he is invincible.

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The Slay Mercer Fray quest: Escape from Irkngthand, once you killed him, the whole place will be filled with water, so loot all you can then start swimming upwards (as it fills) - follow your companions. You should be able to see a gaping hole at the celling , swim through it and you're fine. You might want to bring
along a potion for WATER BREATHING.

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Turning in amulet of arkay to Torjbourn in Windhelm: you can turn in a stolen amulet. I did it =)

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Visit Proudspire Manor quest. Okay, this is rather funny - you can only complete the quest if you enter the manor through the FRONT DOOR (Not the side or back door). So, there you go! :)

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Dragging balagog's body - depending on the location you killed him at. If beside the lake, you can use unrelenting force to 'throw' his body into the lake. If in his room, HOLD 'E' to drag. Hide behind wine barrels count. Source: http://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/615805-/61079067

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OTHERS

Some other stuff that I want to share :)

If you do play, you simply must 1. try to join all the guilds :P 2. try being a vampire/werewolf 3. buy all the houses and become thanes of cities 4. get married!

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Also some Q and A, and tips (Do read, some stuff you might think are bugs but actually they work fine)

What happens if you pass the 999th save? No worries, nothing bad will happen. It'll just continue on to the 1000th save lol. But it's best to remove some of the saved games as I've read that it might lag your game. How to delete? Go to C:\Users\[UserName]\Documents\My Games\Skyrim\Saves (For Win vista/7)

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If a door doesn't open and you're lazy or unable to do the puzzle involved in unlocking the door or no lockpicks or etc, you can use the console command : (after pressing '~') type: 'tcl' It will remove collision so you can move right through the door like a ghost. Walk carefully though, in some places you might look as though you're falling through the ground but you are actually not (but if you really fall through the floor, it will just pop you back to the entrance of the place you're in). Type 'tcl' again to re-enable collision, immediately after walking through the door. NOTE the WARNING posted in front of this thread.

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Also, I would advise against clearing an area without having a quest for that area. Some times you might just accidentally killed the boss that you need to kill for a quest that you haven't taken yet. That'll suck big time. BUT the solution: type 'resurrect' while placing your cursor over the corpse of the boss/bandit leader that you need to kill (after pressing '~' ofc)

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If something got stuck, can try using the 'disable' console command (after pressing '~').

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Owning more than 1 horse - it is possible but you have to BUY the horse. If you steal it, the horse will wander away and will not wait for you. Once you buy a new horse, the old one will return to its stable where it was bought from. You'll be riding the new one. If you want the old one back, either kill your new horse and get the old one or just get your old one from the stables.

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You can mine for ores in caves!!!! (I didn't know about this until I accidentally mined an ore vein, gosh!), so do carry along a pickaxe when you head to any cave - there might be valuable gold veins in there! The axe is not very important though - firewood's for deco only I think.

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To know about any other bugs and glitches, READ THIS: http://elderscrolls.wikia.com/wiki/Bugs_(Skyrim)#Bugs_and_glitches

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P/S: Unfortunately, a few days after I've posted this - my laptop went and killed itself, so there goes my level 50 skyrim character and the 1000+ saved games that I had. There are plenty of solutions that I had no luck to try before this terrible misfortune, so if you've tried them and had luck/ no luck with them, you can comment below so other people will know. 

I'm just too lazy to re-level my character from scratch, plus I'm still mourning the countless of hours that I've already sank into this game.... sigh 

Presentation script: Addictions in the modern world - Internet Addiction

Addictions in the modern world - Internet Addiction

Good morning, sir, and my fellow classmates. I hope that you all remember about the relationship between the Internet and I. So, today, I’m going to talk on something entirely different! The title for today is… internet addiction.

Yes, that’s right! Joining the list of most common addictions (with overwhelming approval), comes the Internet! Housing the central stash of information in this millennium, the net has quickly become one of the most “on-the-rise” addictions of this century. Internet addiction is spreading like wild fire throughout colleges and universities across the country. Even Webster’s Concise Dictionary defines this type of addiction as “a habit so strong that one cannot give it up.” If you don’t believe me, take a look at these statistics.


The Washington Post listed some interesting statistics in 2008:
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I’m sure you can read it by yourselves but I would like to point out that almost 14% reported they “found it hard to stay away from the Internet for several days at a time.”


Just because internet addicts don’t steal to pay for their habits. Their addictions don’t cause car accidents but that doesn’t mean Internet addiction isn’t dangerous. People, internet addictions have broken up marriages and strained friendships. They’ve torn apart families and gotten in the way of school and work. Because Internet addiction isn’t seen as life-threatening as drug addiction, it’s a lot more acceptable. Because it’s legal doesn’t mean we should be any less aware of what can happen if we spend all our time online. Trust me… it.. will.. DESTROY your lives!

There are those who spend a lot of time on the Internet and there are those who are just plain addicted. Here are some signs of Internet Addiction:

Firstly, you will feel lost when your service provider is down. You may be wandering around the house aimlessly hoping the connection is quickly restored. However, if the connection is slow, you will feel frustrated. When this happens, you will always want to consider switching provider.

Secondly, interruptions frustrate you. The phone rings while you are in the middle of something (like watching a video) will get you irritated. In some serious cases, bathroom breaks may feel like a hassle. In fact, you may consider switching that computer chair of yours for a toilet. Even getting lunch/dinner/breakfast may feel like a nuisance for some.

Thirdly, you tend to sleep less hours than you used to. Once upon a time, you used to go to bed at 10, now you go to bed past 12 am. Some people may totally neglect their sleep just to continue surfing. If you do fall asleep, you may be sleeping on your keyboard rather than in your bed.

Fourthly, when you wake up every morning or come home from work/school, your first thought is to connect your computer to the Internet. This simple thought makes you happy and you believe that the Internet is one of the best things that happened in your life.

There are some other signs such as logging on instead of working or studying, thinking about the Internet –even when offline and others. You may search for them yourselves if you want to. After you do, ask yourself this question: Are you truly addicted?

Lastly, in my opinion, Internet addiction is the one of the worst addictions out there! Why? Well, most internet addicts are also addicted to a variety of other addictions like online gaming, online gambling, online shopping, online porn, online chatting and etc. It is indeed a serious disorder and the best remedy? Tossing away your computer and canceling your internet service! Sounds outrageous as a solution? Then you are really addicted! Thank you! =)



Written in 2009.

'=) I believe I'm addicted though hehehe' S.Y.

Memorising using stories

I was hoping to write some sort of guide here, but, in the end, I got lazy xP

oh well, here are some examples taken from my fb notes page that I've used stories to memorise oh-my-gawd-it's-so-friggin-hard-to-memorise-all-these-BS-chemical-fking-names phytochemicals in phytochemistry class xD

Legend:
The words in [] are the actual terms that I have to memorise ... lol and the descriptions usually relates to effects/use of these phytochemicals


Phenols
- the story of SP PP-ing during PE class and how the scolded and caned classmates handle their anger in being humiliated.

Simple Plan (SP) [Simple Phenols], when the band is still young, consists of two members, [Lignin] and [Melanin]. In Physical Education (PE) [PhenylEther] class, they were playing the games called A Net Hole [Trans-anethole] and ApiHole [apiole] with their classmates. They got so excited that they accidentally pee pee (PP) [PhenylPropanoid] in their pants (They have bowel syndromes). Ms [Coumarin], the PE [PhenylEther] teacher, rushed in and helped them clean up their PP [PhenylPropanoid] and gave them [Eugenol-dentol analgestic] to stop the peeing while the other classmates, the [Tannin] cousins, the [Quinone] twins and [Flavanoids] siblings, laughed at them. Both SPs burst out crying and ran from the PE room.

[Tannin], [Quinone] and [Flavanoids] were given a scolding and 'caning's as they had laughed at SP. Both [Tannin]s, [Condensed Tannin] (his parents were [Flavanols] - in-breeding among family members are common for [Flavanols]) and [Hydrolyzable Tannin] (his parents are [Glucose] and [Gallic acid]) got so [bitter] over it that they went to the nursery class and hit two boys, [Eucalyptus] and [Corilagin] though [Condensed Tannin] chickened out and ran so only [Hydrolyzable Tannin] ended up getting suspended from school.

The [Quinone] twins, [Hydroquinone] and [Ubiquinone] did something different to release their anger - [Hydroquinone] went and put chemicals which caused [leaf growth reduction] in their family's treasured lily plant (cause he never liked it) and gave [chemical defense] to his fav rose plant instead! [Ubiquinone] went on the Electrically-powered Train Commuter [Electron Transport Chain (ETC)] and never came back (the ETC crashed halfway and all passengers died in the accident).

The [Flavanoid] siblings, namely, [Anthocyanin], [Chalcone], [Flavone], [Flavanone], [Flavonol] and [Isoflavone] did different things too. Truthfully though, the only few things that these siblings share are their [2 Benzene rings] on each middle fingers and the [Propane (3C)]-made chain that they wear [in the middle].

Anyhow, [Anthocyanin] went back home after the humiliating scolding and painted his room [red] and [blue] because these colours soothe him. [Chalcone] went and hang out with his buddies, [Silybin] (He wants to be a doctor when he grows up so he can [treat] [liver disease] and [skin cancer] and [synthesise rRNA]), [Genistein] (He claims to be Einstein's descendent... liar! lol~) and [Phlorizin] ([Phlorizin] has a bad habit of [inhibiting the growth of the apple seedling]in his backyard because he doesn't like to eat apples), at the mall.

[Flavone] started eating [acacetin] jelly to relieve his anger and has never stopped since! [Flavanone] immediately got infected with both [Hesperidin] and [Diosmin] after he got back from school that he had to be admitted into the hospital! [Flavonol] went with his gang of friends and started ganging [Galangin] up the kids in the neighbourhood while drinking alcohols (their favourite is Galan gin [Galangin]).

[Isoflavone] got psychotic and started putting loads of [Isoflavanoid] [fish poisons] and [antifungal] into the family fish pond. He later added [Rotenone] and [Isoflavanone] in for good measure and was given a severe beating as all the fishes in the pond died.




The Terpene Family

In the [terpene] family, there are 6 brothers - hemiterpene, monoterpene, diterpene, sesquiterpene, triterpene and tetraterpene.

The youngest one, [hemiterpene] is as bouncy for a 5-year-old boy [C5]as the Tigger ([tiglic acid]) in Winnie the Pooh's movie. He is also so angelic-looking ([angelic acid]) that he almost always make ladies go 'smoggy' ([phytochemical smog]) over him.

The second youngest brother, [monoterpene], age 10 [C10], loves to cycle ([cyclic]) and when he's not on his bike cycling, his other brothers will call him affectionately (it got stucked as a nickname) as [Acyclic]! Haha! Besides that, he loves [essential oils and perfumes] (though he is a boy) - his favourite few are [menthol], [camphor] and [safranol].

The third youngest, [sesquiterpene] is 15-years old [C15]. He and monoterpene are inseparable - they both like [essential oils], though sesqui's favourite oils are [ABA], [cadrol] and [santonin] instead.

The middle brother, [diterpene], age 20 [C20], is a bit 'touched' in the head - he's still talking gibberish ([gibberelic acid]) most of the time like a baby at this age and his favourite friend is his soft toy bear called [Taxol]. He also likes to eat raisins (resin).

[Triterpene] is 30 years old [C30]. He's one of the two working people in the family - their parents have already retired. He works at [Squalene] International - a very demanding company. To cope with stress of overwork, he likes to carry around a bottle of cardiovascular meds ([cardiac glycosides]). Triterpene is very famous within his family as well as among his friends and colleagues for his very weird mood-swings - when he's in normal mood [common triterpene], he's okay to be with; when he's in sapu-tears [saponin] mood, he's unbearable; when he's in stellar/oustanding [sterols] mood, this is when he can finish up a week's job in a day - a.k.a. workaholic mood! No matter how weird he is, he is the only person in the family with a girlfriend! Her name is Amy Alpha-cin[alpha-amycin] (*It's a word anagram btw, if you haven't figured it out yet*)!

Lastly, the eldest brother, [tetraterpene], age 40 [C40], is an artist. He is wonderful with [colouring agents] and [pigments] mixing. Also, he has a fetish with carrots (his brothers often call him a rabbit behind his back) - he always claim that the [carotenoids] in carrots just keeps him going, like coffee do for other people. However, he also often warn people that not all carotenoids are good - [gamma-carotenoids] are bad enough as it has [cyclization at only one end] but [beta-carotenoids] have [cyclization at both ends] and, hence, are better.

'I hope I can, one day, come around to writing a guide on how to do these sort of stuff. It works very well for me though - I could remember the story and what it meant during my quiz and had aced it =)' S.Y.

The Day We Fell in Love

Okay that title of this blog may sound a bit cheesy but well, this is the poem that my bf wrote for me when he asked me to be his gf :P and the reply poem that I wrote for him :) Enjoy!

His poem

To: The Lady Behind the Glassdoor

Once you have said that you are a resident inside a glasshouse
Forever looking yet never partake
Forever caring yet choose to ignore

And yet, you yearn for freedom just as others do
To know, to share, to care and to love

It takes much courage to take a small step forward
To stand on the stage as others do
But this time as a heroine in your own story

And yet I am here hoping to stand on the same stage as you do
Offering my hand to you as an equal
Hoping that we will be together from
Today and Always~


My poem

To: The guy who offered his hand

From my glasshouse I peered and pondered
And finally took a small step forward

A hand reached down
Offering support and strength

With a thumping heart I reached
And grasped that hand in mine

And there you are smiling at me
As we stood as equals on this stage of life
Hoping the same thing as you do
That we will be together from
Today and Always~

Property of Alex and Aveyn :)