Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Musings - someone else's

Some stuff that I took (without permission :P) from Carl's website (stated in the earlier post)

For those of us who have been disillusioned by formal education, book stores have offered an escape: a place to stumble onto new shit.

Since way back in high school, when I’ve needed creative juice, I’ve take a random stroll through a book store… to raise my awareness, study independently, and find inspiration in unexpected places. I’d sit down with 4 or 5 books at a time and dig through them. I’d usually go home with at least one. (If my parents let me xD)

I think Private Libraries are another fantastic business idea. Old books, new books, it doesn’t matter — as long as they’re personally-selected for a devoted audience. Instead of coffee shops, why not pay to hang out in a media library personally selected by the Coen Brothers or Kevin Smith? Go there and study all day. I think we’ll be seeing those popping up in the future. If I’m lucky.

I have a poor short-term memory.
Tell me a phone number and it’s wiped from existence by the time you reach the last digit. Concepts are my life raft in a sea of splashy facts. I don’t remember names, birthdays, or what I was doing ten minutes ago.
Unless I intentionally commit something to memory, chances are, it’s gone.

I don’t even know the names of the streets in my neighborhood where I’ve lived for 13 years

Most of the time, it’s because I don’t care.I daydream like crazy. My internal world is so abstract and philosophical that I’d be a wandering, homeless nut if it weren’t for my ability to micromanage and control my own habits.

I don’t have much interest in old stuff unless it serves a purpose. Sentimentality is for teenagers who are afraid their identities will disappear if they don’t cover their walls with everything they like. (Unfortunately, I'm still thinking like a teen, so well... heheheh)

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

10 myths about introverts

This guy is extremely spot on - guess he is really an introvert lol :P And I've almost all of these characteristics at varying degrees but I doubt I'm that extreme of an introvert - moderate perhaps. Although I feel more comfortable talking via an avatar but I still am very self-aware and, hence, I talk very little.

Link here:

So here are a few common misconceptions about Introverts:

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

"This is so true!! =D I can go on and on on the latest documentary that I've watched or anything related to something I'm familiar with."

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

"This is true too! Why talk when you have nothing to really talk about? I mean... what's the point?"

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

"Yes, sometimes being straightforward is what I want to hear but some people just go on and on about something that I don't want to hear :|"

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

"True there. If you're a person of substance, and you've got my respect, then you're in for life, no matter what kind of 'patterns' you have :)"

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

"Yup, like shopping, I like it but I don't shop for long - I plan out what I want to buy and go there and buy, only occasionally stopping by some on-offer items to check out their worth. I can't shop for let's say an hr. Plus, I don't see the point in window shopping."

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

"How I love to have someone who would listen to whatever that I have to say on my latest discovery of some interesting stuff.... I never do"

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

"Tho I do believe I'm currently picking up on the current fashion a bit at a time lol, but I do some my own weirdness - like what I do when I'm eating"

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

"Yeah, I do believe that is what my friends call as blur-ness or antenna short. I'm not very much aware of my surroundings unless I made an effort to and that effort is very exhausting in my opinion depending on how big my 'scope' of the surrounding - for example, if I only want to listen to what my friends are talking about, then I can (scope is small); but if I want to watch the cafeteria as a whole, that's taxing (scope is big)."

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

"It depends on the definition of 'fun' - my idea of fun may not be the same as yours. For example, I can game for hours at end (until I'm satisfied) or sing for hours as well (until I feel hoarse lol) - I often do stuff to, almost, the extreme hehe"

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers.

"Ohhh, yes I know that feeling... I've tried being a bit active in talking - I kept convincing myself that everything I say will get positive reaction from people, but then it didn't, and I shut down all over again LOL. Every time I start a new phrase of my life, I want to change - to be more talkative (I know I have a lot to say but I just can't say it when nobody's actually caring enough to listen actively - most of them just tolerate me :P), but I can't and I don't know why. Guess this is it lol"

That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race.

In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

“You cannot escape us, and to change us would lead to your demise.” <-- I made that up. I'm a screenwriter.

It can be terribly destructive for an Introvert to deny themselves in order to get along in an Extrovert-Dominant World. Like other minorities, Introverts can end up hating themselves and others because of the differences.

If you think you are an Introvert, I recommend you research the topic and seek out other Introverts to compare notes. The burden is not entirely on Introverts to try and become "normal." Extroverts need to recognize and respect us, and we also need to respect ourselves.

Monday, December 12, 2011

FYP... sigh~

I've finished it you know... but now, sigh~

Why the hell did it have to be contaminated harr??? All my tolerance tests are gone. Have to redo proly (from the look on Dr Teh's face when I told her).

I was pretty shocked as well but what to do. and funny thing, all my cells became purple cocci except one which is pink rod. :| Weird~ so vastly different from my original results. Highly likely need to redo.... aslo

So overall, I might need to stay (after my finals) at Kampar for like a week at least. Worst case? 2 weeks... until right b4 Christmas that is. zzz Had thought I will have the entire holiday to start slowly finishing up my results and methods and intro for thesis. WTH, plan all ruined... so how? Remake plans lor~

Anyway, sad stuff aside, I've found a new band that sounds good (a bit like Westlife but modern type, singing pop songs) - One Direction! lol. Their voices are amazing! Very harmonious when combined but the song they recorded for their first album leh.... haiz the song choice a bit bad lor - lyrics and music sounds as though they are made from a factory. Not the memorable type. In my opinion, their best songs are What Makes You Beautiful, Gotta Be You and One Thing. Okay ones: Taken, Same Mistakes and More Than This.

Okay, nite! Going to check on my Castleville first though hehe. Yaya, I know it's late liao (like very late lol). Can lar, just 2 more chapters to finish CnC, then start memo (>.<)!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Tyler Ward - The Hardest Thing

Still framed photograph
Of you.. and me together
Is all I have of me and you
We were so in love and
We thought it would last forever
But in the storms
*we were torn*

And I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing I have to do is
To live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away

I'm lost without you
Still crazy for ya
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss... I miss you

2nd verse:
If I only knew the words to say
That would make you turn around
I would say those words to you
More.. than a million times
It's been forever but that hasn't changed
What you mean to me
*Darling can't you see...?*

That I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing I have to do is
To live without you
And I wonder why
we both walked away

I'm lost without you
Still crazy for ya
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss... I miss you

I'm sorry for
All I did
What I said
The things I hid
I'm finally over me
Is that too late.. for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave me what I need
And I need you coz I need you

And I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing I have to do is
To live without you
And I wonder why
We both *walked away*

I'm lost without you
Still crazy for ya
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss... I miss you
'Very touching, but I still dunno what I'm feeling touched about lol :P' - TSY

Tyler ward - Falling

And the conversation was right
Underneath the shade of moonlight
You were standing there
With sun-touched hair
And your dress the color white

Like an aeroplane
I took flight
Fell in love with you that first night
Cause you danced with me
And I could see that there was more to life
I'm falling
I'm falling
In love with you
I'm falling
I'm falling
In love with you-ooh

Just before the strike of midnight
You said "This could be the good life"
And you say "Goodbye, hope that I get to see you soon"
Then I walked for several miles
Couldn't rid me of my smile
Cause you found me and I found you
In this lovely month of June

I'm falling
I'm falling
In love with you
I'm falling
I'm falling
In love with you

Will you catch me
Because lately
You're a dream come true
Say you love me
You are lovely
Do you feel it too?

I'm falling (Catch me, hold me, feel me baby)
I'm falling (Hug me, want me, find me baby)
In love with you (Tell me, hold me, feel me baby)
I'm falling (Hug me, want me, follow me babe)
I'm falling
In love with you

I'm falling (Catch me, hold me, feel me baby)
I'm falling (Hug me, want me, find me baby)
In love with you (Tell me, hold me, feel me baby)
I'm falling (Hug me, want me, follow me babe)
I'm falling
In love with you

'My new fav youtube male singer :)' - TSY

Quoting myself - Quote of the day!

1. Just because I'm in a constant state of blur-ness, it doesn't mean you don't tell me anything.
2. A message or a call, you just can't afford to tell your dear friend up on second floor that you're going back early?
3. When the friendship in a gang of friends started to revolve around one particular member of the gang, then is it still called friendship?
4. Over-thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, twists things around, makes you worry and just makes everything much worse than it actually is.
5. Sometimes, I just wish life could be simple. Just let me live my life. Just let me be.

Friday, November 4, 2011


When I rewatched the slides that I've made for the talkshow, I've realised that is one of the times that I've really put all my effort into and that it turned out amazing. The script was brilliant (not just patting myself on the back lol), the slides were awesome with some complexity in animations and sound effects (I was addicted to putting in Narnia, Pirates of the Carribean, WoW, and Stardust OSTs) though the advertisements were a bit shoddy (we added in the 'S.H.E.' advert! :)), the group members were great at contributing ideas and helping out, the acting was believable, and this was my first time cropping audio to fit my slides with prefect timing lol. Overall, it was fun and an amazing experience that will always make me smile whenever I rewatched the slides.

I rmb the shocked look on Ms Chuah's face when she heard our 'guest entrance' music and when we addressed her as a reviewer for Times magazine lol.

Tried to find the theme music for NTV7 but failed though I made the logo rotate so it looks like the real one hehe.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Lifehouse - Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting (though) i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
Every night I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection.. inside of my eyes
That are looking for (a) purpose... they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), there is healing
Every night (every night) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm *hangin'* on another day
Just to see what.. you throw my way
And I'm *hanging* on to the words you... say
You *said* that I will.. be OK......

The broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now,
Haven't forgotten........ my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
*Every night* I find *meaning*
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm *holdin' on* (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm *holdin' on* (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' *on* (I'm still holdin'), I'm barely holdin' on to you

"A very nice music video which is open to different interpretations, emotional and deep lyrics, what more can you ask for? :)" S.Y.

Elliott Yamin - 3 Words

Every story has an ending
Ours is just the same
We can’t run away
Where’s the glory in holding onto something
We can’t change
Where’s the distance between the things you say
And what you do
Let’s just tell the truth
And the resistance
Pretending that our love is bulletproof
When it’s all over
Say it’s all over

You pulled me in and shut me out
But that’s no way to say you need me
You lift me up and let me down
Apologise and say you love me
We need more than 3 words to take us backwards
It’s almost like we’re tryna find another way to say it’s over
To say it’s over

Do you remember the mystery in how it used to be
Or is that just me
The feeling lingers
But never long enough to make me believe
That it’s not over
It’s really over

You pulled me in and shut me out
But that’s no way to say you need me
You lift me up and let me down
Apologise and say you love me
We need more than 3 words to take us backwards
It’s almost like we’re tryna find another way to say it’s over
To say it’s over

Tonight we’ll see the last of us
The final scene

You pulled me in and shut me out
But that’s no way to say you need me
You lift me up and let me down
Apologise and say you love me
We need more than 3 words to take us backwards
It’s almost like we’re tryna find another way to say it’s over

To say it’s over
To say it’s over
To say it’s over

Every story has an ending
Ours is just the same

"I heard this song at McD and I was like... wow, who the hell is the singer, I simply must find out! And I did! ^^" S.Y.

Update!! ttttwwwoooo!

Yes, yes, I should update this blog more often as it's my life's only 'black and white' documentation, heheh.

Anyway, I'm legally an adult now - 21 lol! The bday cake they bought was pandan layer cake (maybe coz they think I'm still sick) and it actually tasted not that good - I hate pandan cakes! But well, I'm not going to complain and be ungrateful so I just smiled and ate - then got leftovers pulak - 4 friggin pieces!!

And on my bday, I've found out that a fb friend - that I've never known irl, I'm positive - suddenly said want to change his status from 'fb gaming buddy' to something else *hint*hint* LOL. My imagination's running wild, ain't it? Well, he wants to be irl friends and I said fine then, just tell me when. Then, he said depends on my free time, then I said oh yeah hor, I'm in Kampar while he's in Penang and I said I will tell him when I'm coming back. Gosh, I sounded so bad, ya? >< I'm really bad at these kinds of stuff.

Another thing, FYP's going rather smoothly I think - maybe later will realise cannot finish LOL. I've got my pure cultures - most of them anyway, except for my new sample, the pickled juice, and the recently discovered mixed culture, the light soy sauce. But, well, enuf about that, I'm going to start on differential agars soon - tomorrow start preparing agars! Wheeeee! Rofl. P/S: I've lost a very important piece of paper for my FYP and I'm still grieving over it ><

The class leh, sooo boring and I'm not sure what the important points are and yet I have not yet started making notes! Gosh!!! I want to get 4 flat OR an A+ for this subject lehhhh!

Besides being tired almost everyday after lab, I've started my guitar lesson number 1 with Yin Huan! :) I've learned some of the chords and I've also memorised some. Maybe soon I can start plucking a song out then move on to strumming :P

Okayyy, I think that's it. Will talk soon!


I've been doing a lot of thinking about this recently and guess what? I just went home today after pasar malam, finished half my food, then wrote this song lyric - song not named yet though and there are no music for it... yet xP

Anyway, enjoy my first attempt at songwriting!

It seems like just yesterday
We're having fun
Laughing and joking in the hall
But now we're at the end
Of our 4-year journey

Looking back now
How I wish it would last
But every story has an ending
Ours is just the same
this is the end, this is our graduation

Let us not grief
Let us not cry
We have our memories
To last us a lifetime

How I will miss you
My dear friends
The time we've spent together
Laughing our worries off
Talking like there's no tomorrow
How I will miss you
My dear classmates
The time we've spent teasing
Having the time of our lives
How... I will miss you

The ceremony's starting
The long-winded speeches
And the endless parade
The bittersweet feeling
Of separation and graduation
(it's just epic)

You'll know you always have
Our friendship, love and care
But every story has an ending
Ours is just the same
this is the end, this is our graduation

Let us not grief
Let us not cry
We have our memories
To last us a lifetime

How I will miss you
My dear friends
The time we've spent together
Laughing our worries off
Talking like there's no tomorrow
How I will miss you
My dear classmates
The time we've spent teasing
Having the time of our lives
How... I will miss you

No matter how far we're apart
I'm sure we'll find a way
To be in touch
To keep in touch...

Let us not grief
Let us not cry
We have our memories
To last us a lifetime

How I will miss you
My dear friends
The time we've spent together
Laughing our worries off
Talking like there's no tomorrow
How I will miss you
My dear classmates
The time we've spent teasing
Having the time of our lives
How... I will miss you
Will miss you
Will miss you
Will miss you...

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Personal trait test :P

you are a concerned inventor.


about you

you are an inventor

  • Your imagination, self-reliance, openness to new things, and appreciation for utility combine to make you an INVENTOR.

  • You have the confidence to make your visions into reality, and you are willing to consider many alternatives to get that done.

  • The full spectrum of possibilities in the world intrigues you—you're not limited by pre-conceived notions of how things should be.

  • Problem-solving is a specialty of yours, owing to your persistence, curiosity, and understanding of how things work.

  • Your vision allows you to identify what's missing from a given situation, and your creativity allows you to fill in the gaps.

  • Your awareness of how things function gives you the ability to come up with new uses for common objects.

  • It is more interesting for you to pursue excitement than it is to get caught up in a routine.

  • Although understanding details is not difficult for you, you specialize in seeing the bigger picture and don't get caught up in specifics.

  • You tend to more proactive than reactive—you don't just wait for things to come to you.

  • You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.

  • You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.
  • If you want to be different:

  • Try applying your creativity to more artistic arenas, and letting your imagination take less practical forms.
  • how you relate to others

    you are concerned

  • Your understanding of others' emotions, your sense of right and wrong, and your skeptical nature make you CONCERNED.

  • Your observations of your environment, in concert with your clearly defined worldview, leads you to be aware of the feelings of others.

  • Because you can read people well, and because you can understand their feelings, you are often bothered by others' insensitive behavior.

  • While you appreciate others' emotional nature, you don't think their emotional concerns should take precedence over their obligations to society.

  • You prefer to be in smaller groups, as big groups can occasionally get out of hand.

  • Order and structure are somewhat important to you—you believe that people's feelings are better protected when others are respectful and follow certain societal guidelines.

  • You tend to share your feelings with a few individuals who are close with you, but otherwise you are a somewhat private person.
  • If you want to be different:

  • Let your caring nature allow you to put more trust in people in general—you can have more faith in them without losing your valuable skepticism.


  • Credits:
  • Funny blog post

    I accidentally found this blog and well, I gotta say it's extremely hilarious. She is a great writer (and I'm not... sigh~) Anyway, this post is rather interesting and I thought I might want to share it out plus her comments :) P/S: I do think she and I are somewhat alike! Social awkwardness ftw lol

    What Men Really Want

    “A man gives many question marks, however, a woman is an entire mystery!” – Diana Sturm.

    Sense of Humour

    My great grandfather always said laughter was the best medicine, which is I guess why several of us suffered from never-ending whooping cough. At the conclusion of an everlasting work day, most of us are lethargic, irritable, and suffer from an intense desire to burn anyone who gets in our way. A great sense of humour, a keen wit, and the sly ability to laugh at anything even remotely amusing will therefore alleviate a lot of life’s pressures and dramas. Everybody loves to laugh - the most successful movies, plays, and television shows have always been comedies. Life is way too short to take it seriously and so the most attractive quality a woman can have is to keep those around her in constant amusement. I keep in close touch with an ex-girlfriend to this day for the sole fact that we can make each other laugh like very few others can, and I guarantee that every guy out there is looking for similar fun and frivolity.

    IMHO: Well, I have been told I'm as funny as heck and if I must make myself sound like the most cocky biatch in the world, then yea, I think I've got a killer sense of humour.

    What's hard is finding someone who appreciates a good joke (which normally entails some level of elbowing and insulting) and can actually reciprocate (Cellulite is NOT funny.).

    With Mr. Pai Kia, the dynamics of our relationship is rather different. For once the guy is the dominant one and I let him win most of the time (and make attempt a puppy-dog face alot). Mostly out of fear that he might go into one of his weird-talk-don't-make-sense phases which scares the bejesus out of me.

    And man, his jokes, I JUST DON'T GET.

    Sure, I make him laugh which he appreciates, but it's mostly me being silly and blonde. And most of the time, drunk.


    While it is generally thought that men are fearful of women whose intelligence is superior to their own, nothing could be further from the truth. No one expects their significant other to be able to expertly discuss and analyse the geological topography of the People’s Republic of Chad, however, social intelligence and a keen interest in the world around us are qualities that will take most people a long way. In any sort of social scenario, we will be introduced to people who are well read, widely travelled, highly educated, and culturally curious, and it’s important that we are able to converse in type. Therefore most guys I know will always look highly upon a girl whose knowledge and interests are extensive and varied, and who is clever without resorting to grandstanding or the belittling of others. It’s been said before that sex and intelligence are the dual cures for boredom, and for single guys it’s not often that both are readily available in the same package.

    IMHO: I'm well read, widely travelled, highly educated, and culturally curious. But I still feel like a dumbo alot of the times, especially at work.

    Personal Style

    While the male mind might easily be distracted by the flashing of an unholy amount of skin, it’s not generally something that will keep us occupied long term. We’re not all really that shallow and typically much prefer a woman who dresses for the occasion with a little class and elegance - it’s why you just don’t see that many guys actively pursuing relationships with Vegas showgirls or Jessica Simpson. It’s certainly important to wear a spectacular ball gown to a VIP event and to have a hot clubbing outfit ready to go, but we also appreciate a pair of ripped jeans and singlet when lazing around the house or a business suit and stockings for a client meeting. Fashion isn’t always about dressing up or dressing down and it certainly isn’t about showing us everything as guys definitely prefer to leave some things to the imagination. Give us variety, substance, and show us that you have a personal style all of your own, because clothes don’t just maketh the man and we do pay attention!

    A Knock-Out Feature

    While guys would be lying if we said looks were not important, they maybe do not carry as much weight as most ladies would think. A woman does not have to be drop dead gorgeous with the body of Elle Macpherson and the face of Cleopatra for our interest to be tweaked. If you were to ask twenty guys what feature they found the most attractive in a girl or noticed in the first instance, you would quite likely receive twenty different responses. Some guys are derriere obsessed whereas others search for a Mercedes Corby picket-fence smile; some appreciate curves and booty while one of my mates has a strange obsession with well shaped ears. While you probably have no idea what that guy you have been eyeing at the bar for the last couple of hours looks for and prefers, you will certainly know what your own knock-out feature is and everybody certainly has one, whether it be mysterious eyes, sensual lips, lustrous hair, a killer set of buns, a gym toned stomach, or rose petals floating out of your cleavage a la Mena Suvari. Whatever it is, play it up, work with it, enhance it, own it. If a guy notices and admires your best asset, it’s more likely that he will transfer that admiration over to you as a whole.

    IMHO: Only physical feature that I like which could 'qualify' for knock-out features are my wrists and hands and fingers. Thinner than average and looks dainty, which boys seem to like. Other than that, flaws which I quite expertly hide and make people believe I actually look naturally awesome. WAHAHAHA.


    Nothing is more attractive to me than a woman who breezes into a room like she hasn’t a care in the world. Carrying yourself with an aura of poise and self belief is a quality that will have male heads turning wherever you go. In this respect, confidence is channelled from someplace deep inside and it’s not an easy thing for men or women to fake or imagine - confidence can only be realised from a supreme belief in your own power. Watch your cat the next time it enters the room and acknowledge how it watches you with a curious mix of superiority, detachment, and impenetrable unflappability. While initially it will be difficult to stop yourself from throwing its smug face out the front door, you somehow are left working even harder to garner its love and approval. Confidence between the sexes prefaces innocent teasing, harmless flirting, and a sense of danger and mystery that allows for the transfer of power in any personal relationship. This will more often than not have any guy eating directly out of the palm of your hand.

    IMHO: I have the aloofness of a cat, but not the confidence for sure. When I enter a room of strangers (which doesn't happen if I can help it with all my being), I stand around the corners and stay very close to the exits for when the social awkwardness gets too overwhelming.

    Meeting a significant other's friends and acquaintances usually see me freezing up and not talking all too much. Except when I'm drunk (but of course).

    So. Is there so much wrong with me?

    P,P/S: Added the link to her blog for future reference and for acknowledgement :) -

    Saturday, September 10, 2011


    Well, I know I have not been writing my blog for like ages and I'll try to make it up by putting in as much as I can <- the more colourful stuff ofc ;)

    Anyway, let's start off with Guess the Sketch. It is the first time in my life that I've been complimented on my rough drawings lol - she (I think she's a she :P) said that I draw very well and would like to be my friend (in that game). Well, that's rather unexpected lol but well, I can't say that I'm not pleased =)

    Next stuff, about end of June or early July (I can't rmb now), PWoW has finally breathed its last breath - the server that I've been on for 3 years and have started my WoW 'career' is officially and in finality dead. I can't say that I'm surprised - have been expecting this sooner or later but I didn't thought it would be so soon... The sad thing is that prior to its final days, I have been away from WoW for weeks due to exams. I wish I was there when it has it last moments - see all those familiar players one last time and ss all my characters and my GB's wealth (I think I have over a million gold in GB at that moment and over 50k gold in total spread among my characters; my mage has not yet and will never hit the 6k gs mark - he's still at 5.8k; my pally at 5.5k (ally at 5k); my druids, horde and ally, at 5.8k and 5.4k respectively; hunter at 5.3k; warlock at 4.7k; priest, horde and ally, at 5k and 4.4k respectively; rogue at 5.5k ally, horde at 4.8k; warrior tank at 5.4k; DK at 4.8k; shammies, horde and ally, at 5.3k and 5k respectively <- and these are the ones that I've bothered to gear) .

    I think I do have a total play time of over 100 days combined all together (my AH/PvP rogue already has 30 days on him lol). Seriously, with that much play time you'd expect me to fail badly in schoolwork - surprisingly in this period of gaming, I actually scored an almost 4 flat for foundation lol and my degree weren't too bad except the most recent semester's result - which have dropped an epic 0.1% in CGPA! GOSH! I worked hard and only got a 0.04% increase but then drop so much!!!! ZZZzzzZZZzzzZzz.

    With the server gone (and also my characters), I thought well, that's the end of WoW - time to uninstall but then I itch to try out Cataclysm (worgens and archealogy ftw!)... then after a month of absolute boredom, I found a new server (Neverendless) to play on >.<

    Now, I'm putting in (whenever possible) almost 6 - 7 hours per day and I play daily... and it's my supposedly 'study leave' DAMN! Think my CGPA will drop further (out of the first class honours rank?) ..... you BET.

    I'm so screwed. I can hardly focus at all and my parents... well let's just say that I think they have given up on advising/persuading me and just hoped that I would come around and stop... but I don't think I can do it alone >.<. If I delete any of my new characters that I've put lots of effort into, I might just breakdown and not do anything at all <<-- To temporarily pause, maybe... but it's still really hard. And then there's that The Sims Social game on FB. Sigh...

    Furthermore, Leong gotten the Dragon Age 2 CD and helped me installed it. It is AWESOME. The plot is as great as the previous DA but it limits a bit more on character customization and it is way easier than DA:Origins though. I'm hoping to have another go but this time as an apostate hah! Surprisingly, I've finished the game and Leong hasn't although he was the first to install it (weeks before I installed mine lol)

    Moreover, the BSS Bioweek was a HUGE SUCCESS! and, as expected, the main attractions were the CSI 'crime scene' and the Live Exhibition. All the programs planned are my ideas and I'm proud of that. Lots of lecturers actually complimented us as well (though Dr Lisa is slightly upset when we forgot to put in the accreditation for the biochem students for lending us their DNA models). Pity the documentary showing lacks advertising - the contents are amazing! They just don't know what they've missed out on!

    Also, Prom Night (Paparazzi) was a HUGE SUCCESS as well (tho I'm not the organizer hehe. and there are rumours about the Head - Si Nan, flaunting and misusing his authority and not doing anything). You simply must see my hair-do lol!!

    Okay, medical-wise, I've got myself bitten by some unknown insect/bug/creature and now, although the swelling is gone, I still have the cyst under my skin and sometimes it itches and pains me lol. Carpal tunnel's syndrome <- yup I think I got them occasionally, especially from over-gaming (record: 3 days straight [got eat a bit and 4-5 hrs sleep lar...] - since after school friday till sunday night, then skipped monday 8am class coz cannot wake up zzz). Weird pain on the side of my head that doesn't felt like throbbing but then I think it's gone. Haven't exercised for ages and my muscles felt wasted. Sleeping less and even later then before - there was one time I didn't sleep at all and right after gaming, I went to class (w/o bathing also >.<).

    Mental-wise... yea... well... my gaming addiction as well as internet addiction are getting worse (as you can see from above). My coursework marks are at their lowest point and now I'm purely depending on my finals to get through BUT as you can see as well, I've failed to control my 'cravings' ... if continue like this, I'm pretty sure my results would be even worse than my previous sem and it might just land me in the second-class honours + lost of my 1 more year's worth of scholarship. I seem to get addicted to any game - once I had DA2 installed, I played until 5am :| and then continue right after I wake up the next day. Sigh~~

    well, now's already 1am and I'm still thinking of doing my Auctions before sleeping (AH stuff can take up to 1 - 2 hours leh >.>) and my target of stuff to study today wasn't finished either. CHAM!

    I MUST STOP GAMING! That's the only way... I can promise myself time to play after finals but what if the server suddenly updated to Cata?! >.< I still haven't gotten the Cata installation yet! GRRRAAHHHH!

    Now, I only have 3 more days before my first paper - Fermentation Tech. and it's a lot of calculations that I, more often than not, like to do stupid mistakes on. SIGH.

    Gosh, I've been ranting, ain't I (for almost 45 minutes now O.O)? Kk, time to stop and go sleep. It's a long sprint to cover as much stuff as possible tomorrow. Wish me luck! (lol, I'd think I need a MIRACLE and not only luck now >.< Fingers crossed!)

    P/S: Photos of the bioweek, prom night can be viewed at my FB photo albums. =)

    Saturday, June 11, 2011

    A worrying predicament

    Adult ADD - - -
    Adults with ADD may have double the challenge of children with the same disorder! Firstly, they often go undiagnosed because attention deficit disorder treatment tends to focus mostly on children. Although it is a problem which an ADD adult usually carries from childhood, it was not a widely recognized disorder in past generations so they often don't realize they have ADD until their own child is diagnosed. Parents will recognize their own past or present behavior when they look through the list of symptoms for their child. Also, there are several fairly common adult conditions that can mimic ADD , such as depression, anxiety, hormonal imbalances hypothyroidism, manic depression or obsessive compulsive disorder. It is very important that a physician rule out these conditions before properly diagnosing adult ADD.

    The ADD adult may have the same challenges as the ADD child with the main difference being that adults have more sophisticated coping mechanisms than children. Behaviors may include: difficulty staying organized, difficulty finishing a task, procrastination, trouble maintaining relationships or controlling their moods, very impulsive, poor financial management, etc. Once adult add is diagnosed, physicians often prescribe antidepressant medication, like Prozac, and if that is ineffective, stimulant drugs likely will be tried. It is very important to understand that the attention deficit disorder adults can successfully reduce or eliminate their symptoms naturally by incorporating diet, exercise and lifestyle modifications.

    I've just did that website's ADD survey-kinda thingy and surprise surprise! Guess what the result is?

    Dr. Amen suggests: "More than 20 items with a score of three or more indicates a strong tendency toward ADD. Your total number of items with a score above three is 41.
    Based on this calculation, you HAVE a strong tendency toward ADD.

    LOL! This sucks but then there are further test questions to be answered to know vaguely which type of ADD you are.

    Your ADD Type Results

    Your results indicate that it is likely you have ADD
    Your results indicate that it is unlikely you have Inattentive ADD
    Your results indicate that it is likely you have Over-focused ADD
    Your results indicate that it is likely you have Temporal Lobe ADD
    Your results indicate that it is likely you have Limbic ADD
    Your results indicate that it is likely you have Ring of Fire ADD

    :| I've got to find out what's wrong with me lol so I googled all those.. well illnesses.

    1. Over-focused ADD

    Worries excessively or senselessly
    Is oppositional and argumentative
    Tends to get locked into negative thoughts, hving the same thought over and over again
    Tendency towards compulsive behaviors
    Tends to hold grudges
    Has trouble shifting attention from subject to subject
    Difficulty seeing options in situations
    Holds onto his/her own opinion and won't listen to others
    I didnt have all symptoms though... moving on!

    2. Basal Ganglia ADD
    Angry or aggressive
    Sensitive to noise, light, clothes and/or touch
    Frequent or cyclic mood changes (highs & lows)
    Inflexible or rigid in thinking
    Insists on having his or her own way, even when told no multiple times
    Periods of mean, nasty or insensitive behavior
    Periods of excessive talkativeness
    Periods of excessive impulsiveness
    Exhibits unpredictable behavior
    Displays grandiose or "larger than life" thinking
    Talks fast
    Has the sensation that thoughts go fast
    Appears anxious or fearful
    Don't have all the symptoms either...

    3. Limbic ADD
    Low energy
    Frequent irritability
    Tends to be socially isolated
    Frequent feelings of hopelessness, helplessness or excessive guilt
    Low interest in things that are usually considered fun
    Sleep changes (too much or too little)
    Chronic low self-esteem

    4. Temporal ADD
    Periods of quick temper or rages with little provocation
    Misinterprets comments as negative when they are not
    Tends to become increasingly irritable and then explodes. Is tired after a rage.
    Periods of spaciness or confusion
    Periods of panic and/or fear for no specific reason
    Imagines visual changes (sees shadows or objects changing shape)
    Frequent periods of deja vu
    Sensitive or mildly paranoid
    -> mild paranoia and periods of deja vu :O

    Anyhow, I have quite a lot of the symptoms overall but if specifically for one illness only, then I might have perhaps less than 80% of the symptoms frequently. Haiz, dunno lah. I do have spaciness often. :P

    P/S: NOTE! I've found out there are another sickness (mental) that causes you to get paranoid over these perhaps false, self-diagnosis. So, yeah, Ima ignore all my symptoms for now =P