Rascal Flatts - It's Not Just Me

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
That it's my face you've been seeing
In your dreams at night

Tell me that you wake up crying
And you're not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life, in your life baby

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the pouring rain
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing (crazy thing), I said

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

Hold me now and tell me that you do believe
In a soul, a soul mate
And tell me, and tell me, tell me

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me

'This song is saying -- Please tell me that it's not just me... who is ready to commit. :P' S.Y.

Rascal Flatts - The Day Before You

I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
On the day before you
I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was all the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you

Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
If you're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

Was the last day that I ever needed alone
And I'm never going back
No I'm never going back

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
No I'm never going back
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

'The ultimate love song IMHO - the story of my life.... hehe :P' S.Y.

What I have realised... and a post grad's frustrations

Sometimes, being angry or upset or even hurt at something for too long is just downright damaging to yourself. Why stay in the dark zone when you can go to the light? Why torture yourself over something other people did?

I know I was rather emo and hurt over something my bf said but well, although it did changed me a little, I'm over it - *snap* just like that :) I'm not one for keeping grudges especially towards people who I love =)

but this is not exactly the reason I wrote this blog post coz that part I've realised it long ago and had used it as one of my life's principles :P

What I've realised recently is that the aura at my lab is rather bad these days - tension is running high. People kept getting upset, offended, arguing... I wonder... is it because people are cooped too much? Isolation is one of the characteristics of a research mode, postgrad student. I wonder who made it this way? Is it because the people who decided to do postgrad are people who are this way? Probably... hmm. I don't actually know what I'm typing here lol... I just type away. I don't even think hmm! :\

Now, to the main question, to continue or not to continue? I mean sure, I'm definitely going to stick it through for masters, but for PhD.. hmm is it necessary? Honestly speaking, I believe that I want to do PhD because the title is cool haha - I'm that crazy and well... vain in some sense :P

But now that I have different life's priorities, I should really reconsider... I suspect Dr Tang will try to drag my PhD (if I really go into this) until 5 years lo... by then I would be 28 with no proper and established career and no proper planning for the future and probably with some mental illness or trauma for being used for so long @.@ shit.... but if really 3 years only, then I can get a doctorate at 26! And my future path is clear :)

but if masters, what kind of job (that I like) can I get? hmm. 2 years for masters means that I will be out among the unemployed at 25 with only slightly higher (a few hundred ringgit) pay coz of that masters cert. Maybe I should really consider going to Singapore. hmm...

I want a better life for myself, my future family and my current family - and I believe a doctorate would help me achieve that. But if its deteriorating effect caused me to change into some evil, sadistic monster who will manipulate their future students in the same way I was, then I'd rather let this go. Yue Rong said not all lecturers are as manipulative as Dr Tang - I know he's a good supervisor, but his way of manipulating his students is something that I, not only dislike, but loath. I really cannot see eye to eye with people like this. He may say he saw potential in me and wanted me to do better so keep adding objectives once I've completed them fast enough - so I cannot graduate earlier... then FU, I'll be off earning some real money instead.

haiz, HL agrees with what he does but each person's are entitled to their opinion. And there I've said it. People like this are like dirt to me. :\ Why can't people just care for other people and get along? They just the selfish bastards that they always are... I mean, ya, sometimes I can be a selfish bastard as well, but you're an EDUCATOR - if you don't care for your student's studies, and besides the students themselves, then who will? Using students as free labour is just downright wrong - you may say you taught us stuff so you're entitled to use your students... well HELLO! reality check, who is the person earning RM 10 000 per month while the rest of us is toiling endlessly coz of your too-big ego. You are earning an income to TEACH your students, NOT to use your students. What do we get from all of this? A f-ing cert that's all. All we want is that f-ing cert and we'll be out of your hair. hmm.

Okay, I'm going to chill before I go to sleep. Tmr will be better - keep telling yourself that and you'll crawl through. and I WILL crawl through, even if I had to crawl using my teeth...

How to find impact factor of journals

Surprisingly, I had a pretty hard time trying to get the impact factor of the paper that I am going to present this Friday. So here are some tips that I found out :P

2 kinds of impact factor - one is the conventional impact factor/eigenfactor score; the other one is the google scholar metrics using the h-index.

To find the impact factor:
1. Go to Journal Citation Reports (JCR)'s database http://admin-apps.webofknowledge.com/JCR/JCR?PointOfEntry=Home&SID=4B4LklnA9c4BnjLiD6j (up to 2011)
Edit: The latest one is here: http://apps.webofknowledge.com/UA_ClearGeneralSearch.do?action=clear&product=UA&search_mode=GeneralSearch&SID=R1EcU2HiA2lZ7Na9pQY 
2. Choose the details of your search query.
3. Get the impact factor/eigenfactor score. You're done! :)

Shortcut: If you knew your journal is under BioMed Central, you can have a quick look through here.


To find the google scholar metrics:
1. From www.google.com, go to the menu bar on the top of the google page. Choose 'more', then choose 'even more'
2. From there, click 'scholar' under specialized search section.
3. Then, you'll be brought to the google scholar search page (P/S: this page is great for searching for journals btw :))
4. At the top right corner of the page, you should see a 'metrics' link. Click on it.
5. Then at the left of the metrics page, you can choose the category of the journal that you want to find as well as the language it is in.
6. Get the google scholar metrics score. You're done! :)

P/S: This is a free database maintained by Google. In terms of reliability, it depends on how you think of it - you can find more info on google scholar metrics via Google :P


Good luck! Now back to that dreary paper that I have to read... sigh

Jocelyn - I Can't be With You

Some people call you crazy.
I said I wouldn't let them phase me, but now I see just what they meant.
And girl it's devastating how we both know we're sinking
into nothing more than a shipwreck.

It's sad but true.
I'm leaving you.

I can't see why this is complicated.
All that I need is to be appreciated.
I'm not waiting until the dust settles in your life.
You've got a chemical inside, and I can't be with you.

I can't be with you.

Your love is like a poison.
Everyone around you knows it.
There's only drama in your life.
I'm always being pulled into whatever you've started then,
but now it's time to say goodbye.

So now I'm through and leaving you.

I can't see why this is complicated.
All that I need is to be appreciated.
I'm not waiting until the dust settles in your life.
You've got a chemical inside, and I can't be with you.

I can't be with you.

Jocelyn - Hold On To This

I'm barely sleeping
There's not a night I'm sober
Too busy dreaming
About your head on my shoulder
You couldn't have meant to say those things when you walked out three days ago

And I'm tired of waiting
To reach your answering machine
It drives me crazy,
But it's a sound that soothes me
What I would give to hear that voice when I'm not standing

near the phone

Is anyone there, and will it make a difference?
I'm going to take a stand before we're over

Hold on to this babe
I'm begging you to hold on to this, and let in the truth
It always has a way of coming out with everything we do
'Cause together we are one and the same

One and the same

It's been a long road
But you say we've reached a dead end
And everyone knows
That I'm the one that wrecked this
I may have doubted you, but now I swear my love is true. I mean it.

Does anyone care? I want to make a difference
You've got to take a stand before we're over

Hold on to this babe. It's better when you
Hold on to this. I never meant to
Break all of these (my) promises whenever I lost confidence in you
'Cause together we are one and the same

It's wrong to be hanging onto empty moments
I can not believe it's over
It's wrong, but I'll keep hanging onto every single thing we had
Is anyone there? Does anyone care?

Hold on to this babe
I'm begging you to hold on to this, and let in the truth
It always has a way of coming out when everything falls through
Because together we are one and the same

Hold on to this babe
It's better when you hold on to this
I never meant to break all of these promises whenever I lost confidence in you
Because together we are one and the same

Jocelyn - Everything (I Want to Know)

Are you really the girl that I used to know?

She said, “Come back, and let me see you.
It’s been far too long since we have been together,
but I remember feelings we shared years ago.”

Are you really the girl that I used to know?
‘Cause I’m not even sure who you are anymore.
I gave up on us baby, but don’t do the same
even though it hurts you to tell everything I want to know.

Everything I want to know.

Where have you been and what have you done?
This space between will tear us up.
Get up, I’m not waiting.
Get up, I’m not waiting for it.
Won’t you say that you need to me make it work?

Are you really the girl that I used to know?
‘Cause I’m not even sure who you are anymore.
I gave up on us baby, but don’t do the same
even though it hurts you to tell everything I want to know.

Everything I want to know.

Code Geass - Continued Story

Lyrics:

God bless our king, it's a bright light day
Let us worship in your triumph

Ad this story's mine and this moment's mine
Can I steal your pain and shed it away
To amend this pain to avoid this pain
Can I share this pain and carry it away


Ad this story's mine and this moment's mine
Can I steal your pain and shed it away
To amend this pain to avoid this pain
Can I share this pain and carry it away

Lalalalalala, to the day in my new era

Lalalalalala, to the day in my dreaming land

Towards the light and this moment's mine
Can I steal your pain and shed it away

Towards the light and this moment's mine
Can I steal your pain and shed it away....
-musical break-


*continue below*

Original / Romaji Lyrics	English Translation
Sono hitotsubu no shizuku de sae mo Hana wo mamoru ka mo shirenai Sono waraigao tada sore dake de Sashinoberu te ni mo nareru Sono furueteru koe atsumereba Kaze wo okosu ka mo shirenai Sono inochi to iu hakanaki akari Tomoshite ashi wo susumeyou	With even a single drop of your water I might be able to protect the flowers Simply by showing me your smile, just with that I'll even come to be able to offer my hand If I gather up your trembling voices I might cause the wind to blow Turn on the ephemeral light that is Your life, and let's move along our way
* Rararararararararan   Itsuka mata aou   Rararararararararan   Ikiteru kagiri	* Lala lala lalalala la   Let us meet again someday   Lala lala lalalala la   As long as we're alive
Toki wo koe toraerareteru Afureru kono omoi ha nani? Yasashisa ga mejiri ni niau Ano hito-tachi ha ima doko ni iru no? God bless our king, it's a bright light day Let us worship in your triumph	That is this overflowing emotion That can cross over time and capture me? Where now are those people to whom Gentleness suits the corners of their eyes?
Tonari ni ha atarashii seki Mirai no tame ni mata deau	There is a new seat next to me We will meet again for the sake of the future
Kazaranai mama dekiru dake Ikite miyou kyou to iu hi Kanashikute hito ha setsunai Soredemo dokomademo michi ha tsudzuku	I can just do it while unadorned Let's try to live through this day When they're sad, people are in pain But even so, the path will go on forever
* Rararararararararan   Itsuka mata aou   Rararararararararan   Ikiteru kagiri	* Lala lala lalalala la   Let us meet again someday   Lala lala lalalala la   As long as we're alive
** Rararararararararan     Kaze ga hakobu mono     Rararararararararan     Asu wo hiraku merodi	** Lala lala lalalala la     The wind will carry along     Lala lala lalalala la     A melody that opens up tomorrow
* Rararararararararan   Itsuka mata aou   Rararararararararan   Ikiteru kagiri ** Rararararararararan     Kaze ga hakobu mono     Rararararararararan     Asu wo hiraku merodi	* Lala lala lalalala la   Let us meet again someday   Lala lala lalalala la   As long as we're alive ** Lala lala lalalala la     The wind will carry along     Lala lala lalalala la     A melody that opens up tomorrow

Translated and transliterated by Ayu Ohseki 

'I love the melody in this song :)' S.Y.

Code Geass - Colors (English)

 

Lyrics:

To change the world, and myself,
I need to believe in what I can achieve
And that belief is always and forever in me

This world's getting worse to my dismay
And I simply looked the other way... no longer
I falter, no longer; I worry, no longer; I tremble, no longer
Cause now I must choose
When you gave me the courage;
To stand and take action;
You gave me hope I will never lose

One time my soul was as dark as the night
But then you entered my soul with your light

I see the sun
My heart knows no limit, today I shall live life anew
I'll open up all my windows to see the sky that's so blue

To change the world, and myself,
I need to believe in what I can achieve
And that belief will always be important to me

I'm leaving my past behind me so,
I'll search for answers as I go...
Starting today... ...
-guitar break-
Standing alone while the sun starts to rise
The rays are drying the tears in my eyes

I hear your voice calling out to me
And your smile glistens radiantly
You opened up all the windows to let it shine down on me

I'll change the world and myself
It's time to stand up and fight for what I believe
And that's the strength that gives me what I need to be free

I see the sun
My heart knows no limit, today I shall live life anew
I'll open up all my windows to see the sky that's so blue

To change the world, and myself,
I need to believe in what I can achieve
And that belief will always be important to me
Yeahh
The sky's the limit
Nothing's gonna stand in my way

I feel the wind rushing through my heart and I know the light will show me the way...


'The most meaningful song in Code Geass IMHO. :P'  S.Y.

Code Geass - World's End (English)

Lyrics:

A light is born at the world's end
And now that very light is a spark within the wind~

I cannot live if I just try to hide this
I cannot heal is I rely on kindness
And I wonder what had been stolen
From this ever changing world
And I wonder what I am hearing
Could it be a joyous song

Everything is bright

I want to make this shattered dream
An echo that is felt in the future yet to come
A light is born at the world's end
And now that very light is what will make us unite
As a spark, within the wind

I cannot laugh if  there is pain inside me
I cannot heal if I let sorrow guide me
And I wonder what I have gained here
At the end of this battlefield
And I wonder what I am hearing
Could is be a dying scream


Everything is crying

I want to make this shattered dream
An echo that is felt in the future yet to come
A light is born at the world's end
And now that very light is what will make us unite
As a spark, within the wind

You must try

To keep the world from tears

So return to where you once began

Far beyond the world you know

To the light

Everything is bright

The sky I saw upon that day
Is what I know will come when my wishes are fulfilled
And in that future, we'll return
To where the world began in a pure cocoon of white
As a spark, within the wind

'the english version of the lyrics may sound a bit weird then and there but overall it's good :)' S.Y.

Code Geass (Personal review)

Seriously... one of the best (and my first watched) anime ever! :D

I love the story line - it's very deep and it gave me a very great impression. The music is fabulous - eg. continued story, world's end, colors - best 3 songs :)

Lelouch, despite everything, aimed for a better world, but by sacrificing himself.... I dunno~ I often believe that hatred will regain foothold very soon, even though he had 'collected' those hatred to himself. He did plenty of bad stuff too - like killing all those Geass kids, manipulating Rolo (he's such a nice kid if you ignore those killings he did but still... he only longs for familial love), killing Clovis and Euphemia, manipulating Princess Cornelia's knight's (forgot his name dy) loyalty etc

Lelouch and Suzaku - best friends - bitter rivals

Some people may dislike Suzaku for continuous betrayals - he was good at the beginning, then he realised that life demands results and not the process, besides the death of Euphemia. Then he changed and became someone that betrays his friends, his country and himself. But in the end, he finally see the world that Lelouch is trying to make and decided to help his friend realise that world.

The knightmares are cool too. But well, I watch this series mainly for the plot and character development :) but I do believe some characters in Code Geass acted very dramatically - like Nina.

ah overall, bravo! This is one of the best series of its time =) and it got me thinking about the current world... sigh~

Jocelyn - A Little Too Late

He's packing up and leaving here.
This town just doesn't feel like home.
And though he's been here twenty years, it's finally time to go.
The only thing that's keeping him from running out into the
night is leaving the girl down the hall without a kiss
goodbye.

Make him believe enough to show up at her door so they can
talk about this.
He'll say what he needs before he goes.
But as he walks away, he says,

"I think I've made a mistake. You're the one who could have
made this all okay.
It's just a little too late. You're the one who could have
made this all okay."

She's got her coffee and her favorite morning show on the TV.
But she still feels a little strange about what's happening
between her and the boy who lives a couple doors on down the hall.
Maybe it's finally about time for them to hit it off.

Make her believe enough to show up at his door so they can
talk about this.
She'll say what she needs to so he knows...

I think I've made a mistake.
You're the one who could have made this all okay.
It's just a little too late.
You're the one who could have made this all

Okay, Okay, Okay, Ahhhh
Okay, Okay, Okay, Ahhhh

(He knows it's wrong to leave her alone. She knows it's
wrong. She knows it's wrong.)

I think I've made a mistake.
You're the one who could have made this all okay.
It's just a little too late.
You're the one who could have made this all okay.

'A new band that I've found on Youtube :) They are pretty cool :)' SY.

Runaground - Emeli Sande - Next to Me (Cover)

You won't find her drinking at the tables
rolling dice and staying out til 3
you won't ever find her being unfaithful
you will find her, you'll find her next to me

You won't find her trying to chase the devil
for money, fame, for power, out of grief
you won't ever find her where the rest go
you will find her, you'll find her next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find her, you'll find her next to me

When the money's spent and all my friends have vanished
and I can't seem to find no help or love for free
I know there's no need for me to panic
cause i'll find her, i'll find her next to me

When the skies are grey and all the doors are closing
and the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
well, all I need is a hand to stop the tears from falling
I will find her, will find her next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find her, you'll find her next to me

When the end has come and buildings falling down fast
when we spoilt the land and dried up all the sea
when everyone has lost their heads around us
you will find her you'll find him next to me

Never in my life have i met someone like her
I'm blown away by her love for me
if you ever wonder where it is you'll find her
you will find her, you will find her next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find her, you'll find her next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find her, you'll find her next to me


Official Music Video @ Runaground - Emeli Sande - Next to Me (cover)

'A new and rising Youtube star - Runaground - that I've found today :)' S.Y.

Chester See - Hold On

I opened my eyes
and I looked around
and all the smiling face turned to frowns

I started to run
but I should have known
you don't get very far with nowhere to go

Hold on
take a moment to see what's going on
Hold on
You never know just when that moments gone

I thought about time
and how it's worth more
with every crashing wave that hits the shore

I though about love
and what does it mean
Figure that one out and you're set free

Hold on
take a moment to see what's going on
Hold on
You never know just when that moments gone

I'm broken, I'm broken down
I'm shattered pieces on the ground

So I closed my eyes
I dropped to my knees
It's amazing how much more the blind can see

Hold on
take a moment to see what's going on
Hold on
You never know just when that moments gone

Hold on
take a moment to see what's going on
Hold on
You never know just when that moments gone


Lyrics video @ Chester See - Hold On Lyrics Video

'Another of Chester See's great original songs :)' S.Y.

Chester See - Everything

She loved and left me
Still she kept me
Wanting more, but feeling empty
Did she have to go?
Will I ever know?

Love and leave me
She decieved me
The way she kissed
Was so misleading
I thought that she might stay
Then she went away

Before I close the chapter to your name
There's a couple things I never got to say

Your eyes are wonderful
Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true
There's beauty in your touch
And your kiss is love
You're everything that every guy dreams of
You're everything
That makes me
Fall in love

It's been some time
But still I find
I'm struggling with our
Last goodbye
I thought this love would last
Now I'm living in the past
Cause it's just me
And memories of how my heart
Would skip a beat

Whenever you were near
Now you're never here
Before I find the strength
To let this go

There's a couple things
I need for you to know

Your eyes are wonderful
Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true
There's beauty in your touch
And your kiss is love
You're everything that every guy dreams of
You're everything
That makes me
Fall in love

You're everything that every guy dreams of
You're everything
That makes me
Fall in love

Your eyes are wonderful
Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true
YEAH, there's beauty in your touch
And your KISS is love
You're everything
Yes
You're everything
You're everything
That makes me
Fall in love
Yeah, in love


Full music video @ Chester See - Everything


'A very meaningful song :')' S.Y.

Frustrations and Procrastinations

Frustrations and Procrastinations

When I'm feeling like I'm drowning,
Suffocating, am barely breathing
When water enters my lungs
Choking the life out of me
I feel stiffled, I need to escape!
Away from all these, away from here
But where else could I go?
And what else could I do?
Is there any way to get through this?
Is there a key to my cage?
A ladder out of my tunnel?
Desperation and depression,
Stop bothering me~!
Fatigue and temptations,
Please leave me alone~!
Let me get this done,
Let me finish my work!
You're not helping,
You're making this worse!

Time! Time! I need more time!
When daylight turns to night
As papers piled up higher than high
As I slumped across my table in despair
Sighing at my work
Looking for an escape
Finding an excuse
Getting away!

Reality sets in
The work never went away
Sighing again
I trudged to my desk
And the sound of typing and isolation
Faded into the background noise of life

By Aveyn Toh


'Am published in The UK Poetry Library!!! :D Go check it out @ http://goo.gl/N0qsi2 :)' S.Y.

Hurt

Am I just thinking too much?

But from what you've said last night - it really hurt me. Yes, I am naive, ignorant and stupid, that I admit - I didn't know what it takes to set up a f-king business, but the way you said that to me... it's like you're mocking me (that's how I felt that time and I was deeply hurt but I kept up a facade throughout the night) and it made me feel demeaning. I never thought I would ever hear these sort of words coming from you, out of all people. Did you know that few minutes of 'talk' you gave me felt to me as though they were hours? Long... and agonising hours? Why did you do that to me?

I've all but forgotten about it until you teased me today and it somehow triggered  my anger and I recalled that thing you said to me yesterday.

Yes, in this kind of situation, I get hurt easily. Did you noticed that I avoided having contact with you today? Since this morning that is....? You said, you talk like this to all your friends - yes, I know, I've seen and heard it but then, I wonder... am I just your friend?

And from yesterday, I've heard a lot - and I wonder why you let yourself be trapped in that kind of situation?

You know HL is going to ruin your supervisor's account and that it'll definitely affect you and your studies... badly and you're like 'yeah, let's ruin his account anyway' - you don't really care about staying here isit? Did you realised what you did? You're just ruining yourself! And there I was - worrying away for you and was about to confront HL and to ask him to think of his friend's (your) welfare, but you didn't care about your studies after all? And some friend he is if he asked you to join his lab only to pull you down together with someone that he had a grudge with. His revenge shouldn't be adversely affecting his friends... or perhaps he doesn't think of you as his friend?

Also, I was very concerned when I heard you said something about - 'if that something doesn't suit you, just leave and find another. It's not like the world has so few people only.' - oh ho, so you really think that way ya? When I'm no longer needed or loved, I will be discarded like some piece of trash? Is that really the way you think? But in this aspect I might have been thinking too much as he was not using these words in this context but I feel that your words do reflect who you are and, how and what you think.

I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I am really thinking too much. Maybe I'm just upset and hurt that last night went that way. Maybe I'm just super-tired due to lack of sleep. Maybe I'm just being silly. Maybe I just don't understand you. Maybe you might think that I'm a drama queen after all. But one thing is for sure, I really regretted my decision to stay at Bertam last night... I really do. There are things that I wish I did not hear... especially some of those words that came from your own mouth.

Google Chrome errors and how to fix them + tips to improve speed

Okay I'm compiling some common errors of google chrome and their fixes so I don't have to keep searching for them again lol. P/S: I'm using '----' to represent the arrow alright? Blogger kept changing my arrows into code lol.


1. Missing Plug-in error

All you need to go is go to chromes task manager ... (select the tool on the right hand side by URL bar) OR click SHIFT + ESC to bring it up

search for the "Plug-in: Shockwave Flash" and click END process

close out the task manager and refresh the URL/youtube/page link u were on and it should play fine.

(Source: http://www.google.com/support/forum/p/Chrome/thread?tid=495dc24ec9202e1c&hl=en)


2. Tabs closing when you're left clicking them

It's a mouse problem - your wheel button got stuck. You just need to click the wheel button once to inactivate it. This is because Chrome has this setting whereby it'll close any tab if you click it using the wheel button.

(Source: http://productforums.google.com/forum/#!topic/chrome/oes5LXN44x4)


Tips:

1. If your computer is running slower than usual after you've closed Chrome, it might mean that Chrome's background apps are still using up memory. Go to 'wrench' menu ---- settings ---- advanced settings (at the very bottom of the settings page) ---- scroll down to the very bottom, you should see a 'background apps' section ---- uncheck 'Continue running background apps when Google Chrome is closed'

(Source: http://productforums.google.com/forum/#!topic/chrome/cvIBudKEUkw)

---- ALSO, if you're wondering why chrome.exe appears so many times in Task manager even though you have only 1 tab open in Chrome --- when you load Chrome it also loads any plugins, extensions and apps from Google. So, for faster, non-laggy browsing, disable any additional apps (Google translator/ dictionary etc).

ALTERNATIVE METHOD: In order to close Google Chrome completely when background apps are running, select Exit from the Chrome menu (Quit on a Mac). OR, you can uninstall the apps.

(Source: http://support.google.com/chrome/bin/answer.py?hl=en&answer=1184722)

2. To check what background processes are running and taking up excessive computer memory

Go to 'wrench' menu ---- Tools ---- task manager

*** also, you can manually force close any apps/extensions/plug-ins from there


3. Google chrome's Incognito mode

If you want to browse without leaving any browser history behind, just press these keys (simultaneously) Ctrl+Shift+N. It'll open a new G Chrome window which is set at incognito mode. You'll never need to manually delete certain history entries that you (with a good reason I believe :P) don't want anyone who uses that computer to see. But ofc as mentioned on the first tab of the incognito mode G Chrome....

Going Incognito doesn't affect the behaviour of other people, servers or software. Be wary of:

Websites that collect or share information about you
Internet service providers or employers that track the pages you visit
Malicious software that tracks your keystrokes in exchange for free smilies
Surveillance by secret agents
People standing behind you (for example your boss :P)

So, those people who go to those 'shady' websites can rejoice... lol~ :P

Skyrim encountered bugs and how to fix them

These are the list of bugs that I've found (you might find way more or less bugs than me but well, if the help you need is not here, you have to go back to google and try to find it :P)

These are the solutions that I've used, but I may have also listed a/ a few other alternatives (try it at your own risk!). Also, if you use the console commands, then there is a risk of bugging up more quests in the future (though I have not personally encountered any yet --- edit: I've finally encountered one. It bugged up one of the NPCs and producing multiple copies of it and that you cannot talk to him... luckily that NPC is useless haha :P)

Bug 1: Talk to Esbern

He is supposed to open the door for you and the dialogue for him is not in the files or is corrupted. So I've fixed it by adding a some sort of a 'patch' myself. It worked fine and the dialogue came back (dialogue is not necessary to complete the quest though). 

Download site for bug fix and dialogue fix:http://www.filesonic.com/file/3510536384/sound.rarInstructions: Extract it and copy it to the Skyrim Data folder (C:/ --- Program files *(x86) --- The Elder Scrolls V Skyrim --- Data). It should be INSIDE the data folder and OUTSIDE the other folders (Strings, Video, Interface)

* indicates depends on what version you're using

Source: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20111112223928AA9qU95

Alternative solutions: Try saving very near to the door and load (didn't work for me). OR try exiting the ratway warrens and reenter (didn't work for me).

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Bug 2: Becoming Thane of Riften

The quest tells you to visit your new house, Honeyside, before talking to the Jarl. IT IS FALSE. Just talk to the Jarl RIGHT AFTER you bought the house (DON'T BUY ANY DECORATIONS YET). But ofc, if you have already encountered the bug and don't have a saved game prior to that bug (like me), you'll have to use a console command to fix it.

Go to the Jarl and press '~'. Then type this: 'player.setstage FreeformRiftenThane 200' (follow the spacings). It should fix it (going to try this after I post this note up :P)

Source: http://asia.gamespot.com/the-elder-scrolls-v-skyrim/forum/becoming-thane-in-riften-bug-61552256 AND http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9XKuRrJYFs

Edit: This didn't work for me either... gahhh lol.

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Bug 3: Convince Greta to go to the Temple of the Divines

Okay, this is a tough one. Quoting the solution:

"A solution for the PC version is to proceed to talk to Svari, then talk to the Greta. Mention going to temple, and after she asks you to retrieve the amulet, exit the conversation. Do not choose the "Actually I've got it here" option. Now in the console, type "setStage SolitudeFreeform03 20" (without the quotation marks), this will set the quest to the moment you are supposed to retrieve the amulet. Since you already have it, go into the console once more and type "setStage SolitudeFreeform03 30" which will set the moment you should have picked the amulet up. Return to Greta and give the amulet. It will complete the quest and will be removed from the log, though the Amulet still stays in your inventory and you won't get the reward she mentions."

Source: http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Skyrim:Return_to_Grace

Alt: Or you can just NOT loot the amulet off Roggvir's corpse the first time around. Or just type 'setstage SolitudeFreeform03 20' to move on to the next quest (I think) or to finish the entire quest line change the '20' to '40'.

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Bug 4: Barbas (the dog)

I told him to stay at a place (as he is messing up my sneak) and he's gone when I when back to get him. Try the daedra cave/ shrine, maybe he's there (ima try that). Try waiting a few hours as well if he's not.

NOTE: Barbac is invincible and is very useful against powerful enemies. Also, you can get another dog, if you don't like Barbas, called Vigilance - guide: http://gofygure.hubpages.com/hub/How-to-Find-or-Buy-a-Dog-in-Skyrim 

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Bug 5: Galduar's first door

No clue whatsoever on how to open the door (the three-circle combo type of door). I've got the first one figured out (it's the last combo of all the combos that I've tried >.>): it's (from top to center: bear -> dolphin -> snake). However, for the second door, the clues are useless but I got fed up and used 'tcl' lol.

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Not bugs:

When fighting Arcano, equip the Staff of Magnus and cast it (pressing the mouse button - which button depends on which hand you equip it on) at the eye of Magnus ONCE you enter the room (to trigger the dialogue) - you can stop casting after the dialogue starts, then when Arcano becomes attackable (health bar can be seen), start casting the staff at the eye until it closes (a bit also can already, sometimes). Once it closes, you are able to damage Arcano, or if not, he is invincible.

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The Slay Mercer Fray quest: Escape from Irkngthand, once you killed him, the whole place will be filled with water, so loot all you can then start swimming upwards (as it fills) - follow your companions. You should be able to see a gaping hole at the celling , swim through it and you're fine. You might want to bring

along a potion for WATER BREATHING.

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Turning in amulet of arkay to Torjbourn in Windhelm: you can turn in a stolen amulet. I did it =)

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Visit Proudspire Manor quest. Okay, this is rather funny - you can only complete the quest if you enter the manor through the FRONT DOOR (Not the side or back door). So, there you go! :)

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Dragging balagog's body - depending on the location you killed him at. If beside the lake, you can use unrelenting force to 'throw' his body into the lake. If in his room, HOLD 'E' to drag. Hide behind wine barrels count. Source: http://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/615805-/61079067

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OTHERS

Some other stuff that I want to share :)

If you do play, you simply must 1. try to join all the guilds :P 2. try being a vampire/werewolf 3. buy all the houses and become thanes of cities 4. get married!

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Also some Q and A, and tips (Do read, some stuff you might think are bugs but actually they work fine)

What happens if you pass the 999th save? No worries, nothing bad will happen. It'll just continue on to the 1000th save lol. But it's best to remove some of the saved games as I've read that it might lag your game. How to delete? Go to C:\Users\[UserName]\Documents\My Games\Skyrim\Saves (For Win vista/7)

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If a door doesn't open and you're lazy or unable to do the puzzle involved in unlocking the door or no lockpicks or etc, you can use the console command : (after pressing '~') type: 'tcl' It will remove collision so you can move right through the door like a ghost. Walk carefully though, in some places you might look as though you're falling through the ground but you are actually not (but if you really fall through the floor, it will just pop you back to the entrance of the place you're in). Type 'tcl' again to re-enable collision, immediately after walking through the door. NOTE the WARNING posted in front of this thread.

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Also, I would advise against clearing an area without having a quest for that area. Some times you might just accidentally killed the boss that you need to kill for a quest that you haven't taken yet. That'll suck big time. BUT the solution: type 'resurrect' while placing your cursor over the corpse of the boss/bandit leader that you need to kill (after pressing '~' ofc)

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If something got stuck, can try using the 'disable' console command (after pressing '~').

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Owning more than 1 horse - it is possible but you have to BUY the horse. If you steal it, the horse will wander away and will not wait for you. Once you buy a new horse, the old one will return to its stable where it was bought from. You'll be riding the new one. If you want the old one back, either kill your new horse and get the old one or just get your old one from the stables.

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You can mine for ores in caves!!!! (I didn't know about this until I accidentally mined an ore vein, gosh!), so do carry along a pickaxe when you head to any cave - there might be valuable gold veins in there! The axe is not very important though - firewood's for deco only I think.

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To know about any other bugs and glitches, READ THIS: http://elderscrolls.wikia.com/wiki/Bugs_(Skyrim)#Bugs_and_glitches

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To level skills faster: http://www.g4tv.com/thefeed/blog/post/718771/skyrim-how-to-level-your-skills-through-exploits-not-quite-cheating-but-kinda/

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P/S: Unfortunately, a few days after I've posted this - my laptop went and killed itself, so there goes my level 50 skyrim character and the 1000+ saved games that I had. There are plenty of solutions that I had no luck to try before this terrible misfortune, so if you've tried them and had luck/ no luck with them, you can comment below so other people will know. 

I'm just too lazy to re-level my character from scratch, plus I'm still mourning the countless of hours that I've already sank into this game.... sigh 

Presentation script: Addictions in the modern world - Internet Addiction

Addictions in the modern world - Internet Addiction

Good morning, sir, and my fellow classmates. I hope that you all remember about the relationship between the Internet and I. So, today, I’m going to talk on something entirely different! The title for today is… internet addiction.

Yes, that’s right! Joining the list of most common addictions (with overwhelming approval), comes the Internet! Housing the central stash of information in this millennium, the net has quickly become one of the most “on-the-rise” addictions of this century. Internet addiction is spreading like wild fire throughout colleges and universities across the country. Even Webster’s Concise Dictionary defines this type of addiction as “a habit so strong that one cannot give it up.” If you don’t believe me, take a look at these statistics.

The Washington Post listed some interesting statistics in 2008:

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I’m sure you can read it by yourselves but I would like to point out that almost 14% reported they “found it hard to stay away from the Internet for several days at a time.”

Just because internet addicts don’t steal to pay for their habits. Their addictions don’t cause car accidents but that doesn’t mean Internet addiction isn’t dangerous. People, internet addictions have broken up marriages and strained friendships. They’ve torn apart families and gotten in the way of school and work. Because Internet addiction isn’t seen as life-threatening as drug addiction, it’s a lot more acceptable. Because it’s legal doesn’t mean we should be any less aware of what can happen if we spend all our time online. Trust me… it.. will.. DESTROY your lives!

There are those who spend a lot of time on the Internet and there are those who are just plain addicted. Here are some signs of Internet Addiction:

Firstly, you will feel lost when your service provider is down. You may be wandering around the house aimlessly hoping the connection is quickly restored. However, if the connection is slow, you will feel frustrated. When this happens, you will always want to consider switching provider.

Secondly, interruptions frustrate you. The phone rings while you are in the middle of something (like watching a video) will get you irritated. In some serious cases, bathroom breaks may feel like a hassle. In fact, you may consider switching that computer chair of yours for a toilet. Even getting lunch/dinner/breakfast may feel like a nuisance for some.

Thirdly, you tend to sleep less hours than you used to. Once upon a time, you used to go to bed at 10, now you go to bed past 12 am. Some people may totally neglect their sleep just to continue surfing. If you do fall asleep, you may be sleeping on your keyboard rather than in your bed.

Fourthly, when you wake up every morning or come home from work/school, your first thought is to connect your computer to the Internet. This simple thought makes you happy and you believe that the Internet is one of the best things that happened in your life.

There are some other signs such as logging on instead of working or studying, thinking about the Internet –even when offline and others. You may search for them yourselves if you want to. After you do, ask yourself this question: Are you truly addicted?

Lastly, in my opinion, Internet addiction is the one of the worst addictions out there! Why? Well, most internet addicts are also addicted to a variety of other addictions like online gaming, online gambling, online shopping, online porn, online chatting and etc. It is indeed a serious disorder and the best remedy? Tossing away your computer and canceling your internet service! Sounds outrageous as a solution? Then you are really addicted! Thank you! =)



Written in 2009.

'=) I believe I'm addicted though hehehe' S.Y.

Memorising using stories

I was hoping to write some sort of guide here, but, in the end, I got lazy xP

oh well, here are some examples taken from my fb notes page that I've used stories to memorise oh-my-gawd-it's-so-friggin-hard-to-memorise-all-these-BS-chemical-fking-names phytochemicals in phytochemistry class xD

Legend:
The words in [] are the actual terms that I have to memorise ... lol and the descriptions usually relates to effects/use of these phytochemicals


Phenols
- the story of SP PP-ing during PE class and how the scolded and caned classmates handle their anger in being humiliated.

Simple Plan (SP) [Simple Phenols], when the band is still young, consists of two members, [Lignin] and [Melanin]. In Physical Education (PE) [PhenylEther] class, they were playing the games called A Net Hole [Trans-anethole] and ApiHole [apiole] with their classmates. They got so excited that they accidentally pee pee (PP) [PhenylPropanoid] in their pants (They have bowel syndromes). Ms [Coumarin], the PE [PhenylEther] teacher, rushed in and helped them clean up their PP [PhenylPropanoid] and gave them [Eugenol-dentol analgestic] to stop the peeing while the other classmates, the [Tannin] cousins, the [Quinone] twins and [Flavanoids] siblings, laughed at them. Both SPs burst out crying and ran from the PE room.

[Tannin], [Quinone] and [Flavanoids] were given a scolding and 'caning's as they had laughed at SP. Both [Tannin]s, [Condensed Tannin] (his parents were [Flavanols] - in-breeding among family members are common for [Flavanols]) and [Hydrolyzable Tannin] (his parents are [Glucose] and [Gallic acid]) got so [bitter] over it that they went to the nursery class and hit two boys, [Eucalyptus] and [Corilagin] though [Condensed Tannin] chickened out and ran so only [Hydrolyzable Tannin] ended up getting suspended from school.

The [Quinone] twins, [Hydroquinone] and [Ubiquinone] did something different to release their anger - [Hydroquinone] went and put chemicals which caused [leaf growth reduction] in their family's treasured lily plant (cause he never liked it) and gave [chemical defense] to his fav rose plant instead! [Ubiquinone] went on the Electrically-powered Train Commuter [Electron Transport Chain (ETC)] and never came back (the ETC crashed halfway and all passengers died in the accident).

The [Flavanoid] siblings, namely, [Anthocyanin], [Chalcone], [Flavone], [Flavanone], [Flavonol] and [Isoflavone] did different things too. Truthfully though, the only few things that these siblings share are their [2 Benzene rings] on each middle fingers and the [Propane (3C)]-made chain that they wear [in the middle].

Anyhow, [Anthocyanin] went back home after the humiliating scolding and painted his room [red] and [blue] because these colours soothe him. [Chalcone] went and hang out with his buddies, [Silybin] (He wants to be a doctor when he grows up so he can [treat] [liver disease] and [skin cancer] and [synthesise rRNA]), [Genistein] (He claims to be Einstein's descendent... liar! lol~) and [Phlorizin] ([Phlorizin] has a bad habit of [inhibiting the growth of the apple seedling]in his backyard because he doesn't like to eat apples), at the mall.

[Flavone] started eating [acacetin] jelly to relieve his anger and has never stopped since! [Flavanone] immediately got infected with both [Hesperidin] and [Diosmin] after he got back from school that he had to be admitted into the hospital! [Flavonol] went with his gang of friends and started ganging [Galangin] up the kids in the neighbourhood while drinking alcohols (their favourite is Galan gin [Galangin]).

[Isoflavone] got psychotic and started putting loads of [Isoflavanoid] [fish poisons] and [antifungal] into the family fish pond. He later added [Rotenone] and [Isoflavanone] in for good measure and was given a severe beating as all the fishes in the pond died.




The Terpene Family

In the [terpene] family, there are 6 brothers - hemiterpene, monoterpene, diterpene, sesquiterpene, triterpene and tetraterpene.

The youngest one, [hemiterpene] is as bouncy for a 5-year-old boy [C5]as the Tigger ([tiglic acid]) in Winnie the Pooh's movie. He is also so angelic-looking ([angelic acid]) that he almost always make ladies go 'smoggy' ([phytochemical smog]) over him.

The second youngest brother, [monoterpene], age 10 [C10], loves to cycle ([cyclic]) and when he's not on his bike cycling, his other brothers will call him affectionately (it got stucked as a nickname) as [Acyclic]! Haha! Besides that, he loves [essential oils and perfumes] (though he is a boy) - his favourite few are [menthol], [camphor] and [safranol].

The third youngest, [sesquiterpene] is 15-years old [C15]. He and monoterpene are inseparable - they both like [essential oils], though sesqui's favourite oils are [ABA], [cadrol] and [santonin] instead.

The middle brother, [diterpene], age 20 [C20], is a bit 'touched' in the head - he's still talking gibberish ([gibberelic acid]) most of the time like a baby at this age and his favourite friend is his soft toy bear called [Taxol]. He also likes to eat raisins (resin).

[Triterpene] is 30 years old [C30]. He's one of the two working people in the family - their parents have already retired. He works at [Squalene] International - a very demanding company. To cope with stress of overwork, he likes to carry around a bottle of cardiovascular meds ([cardiac glycosides]). Triterpene is very famous within his family as well as among his friends and colleagues for his very weird mood-swings - when he's in normal mood [common triterpene], he's okay to be with; when he's in sapu-tears [saponin] mood, he's unbearable; when he's in stellar/oustanding [sterols] mood, this is when he can finish up a week's job in a day - a.k.a. workaholic mood! No matter how weird he is, he is the only person in the family with a girlfriend! Her name is Amy Alpha-cin[alpha-amycin] (*It's a word anagram btw, if you haven't figured it out yet*)!

Lastly, the eldest brother, [tetraterpene], age 40 [C40], is an artist. He is wonderful with [colouring agents] and [pigments] mixing. Also, he has a fetish with carrots (his brothers often call him a rabbit behind his back) - he always claim that the [carotenoids] in carrots just keeps him going, like coffee do for other people. However, he also often warn people that not all carotenoids are good - [gamma-carotenoids] are bad enough as it has [cyclization at only one end] but [beta-carotenoids] have [cyclization at both ends] and, hence, are better.

'I hope I can, one day, come around to writing a guide on how to do these sort of stuff. It works very well for me though - I could remember the story and what it meant during my quiz and had aced it =)' S.Y.

The Day We Fell in Love

Okay that title of this blog may sound a bit cheesy but well, this is the poem that my bf wrote for me when he asked me to be his gf :P and the reply poem that I wrote for him :) Enjoy!

His poem

To: The Lady Behind the Glassdoor

Once you have said that you are a resident inside a glasshouse
Forever looking yet never partake
Forever caring yet choose to ignore

And yet, you yearn for freedom just as others do
To know, to share, to care and to love

It takes much courage to take a small step forward
To stand on the stage as others do
But this time as a heroine in your own story

And yet I am here hoping to stand on the same stage as you do
Offering my hand to you as an equal
Hoping that we will be together from
Today and Always~


My poem

To: The guy who offered his hand

From my glasshouse I peered and pondered
And finally took a small step forward

A hand reached down
Offering support and strength

With a thumping heart I reached
And grasped that hand in mine

And there you are smiling at me
As we stood as equals on this stage of life
Hoping the same thing as you do
That we will be together from
Today and Always~

Property of Alex and Aveyn :)